scared of HIV

i am 17 and i had unprotected sex with a boy a year ago he gave me clamidiya i got rid of it straight away but now i have a wonderful boyfriend and i am so scared i have given him HIV, i am so scared i can not get tested i am seeing a phyco sexual councilor, a hypnotherapist and have a meeting with my GP on thursday but they all tell me the same thing ' go get tested' and they do not understand that that is the fear aswell, i have always been a worrier but this is going to far now it is taking over my life, i am not as bad now i can sleep most nights un like before when i used to shake so much in bed i would be sick and panic like mad.i am on anti depresents and they are helping am i being mad or is anyone else the same?

[mystruggle]

what is the deal with so many people fearing HIV these days? i know it's out there. but geesh. what are u really scared of? dying? hurting your boyfriend? just cuz someone gave you the clap doesn't mean you got the hivver. go get tested. man up! or woman up!

just go and do it and i bet you 1 million dollars you dont have it. because 99% of the things we worry about NEVER happen. worrying is useless. too bad we all do it!

go get tested!
go get tested!
go get tested!

i took the test! got a C+ but i still passed haha. that's a lil humor...do the right thing though! put your mind at ease and realize you have anxiety issues and that is what's causing this. but after the test comes back negative you will find something else to obsess about till u get good therapy and get to the root causes of your anxiety and obsessive thoughts. if you have OCD also i know a good friend that takes luvox and he's completely normal now!

later...Jay

[gothic]

i love u mystruggle and to malm i was 15 and still a virgin and thought i had herpies (herpes) on my butt   but it was just a hair bump lol and i was scared to tell anyone and when i finally did tell my doc she laughed and for my peace at mind she tested me and it was negative but if i hadent told her i probley would of drove myself crazy about it and i have to many other thing im scared of then that bump lol