terrified!

[gtz222]

Hello i am a 29 yr old male, i have suffered from extreme anxiety for over 10 years now. Anything little that happens, my anxiety makes it bigger. A few weeks ago i slipped on my front steps due to a ice storm and hit my lower left back and had extreme pain, was on bed rest for a week, it healed up but it's still sore where my kidney is, of course with my anxiety i have made it bigger then what it was and have been scaring myself about injuring nerves and being paralyzed. A week ago i was laying in bed and felt a full body numbing sensation that scared me even more, i was up all night terrified, the next day i went to urgent care and they did an x-ray which came back normal, my spine is fine. the numbing pain has for the most part went away or it's just not as bad anymore for me to notice. The other day i noticed my arms from shoulder down to my fingers and my legs and feet felt extremely light, like spaghetti. Since then i have been terrified and have been scaring myself to the point of i feel like i am going crazy and am on the verge of losing my wife and child because of it. I went to the ER the other day and they did blood work and a urine sample and tested my strength. All came back normal except for a tiny bit of microscopic blood in my urine, which they said was probably from the fall. Of course me looking stuff up on the internet, bad idea, has made this all worse, i read about anxiety numbess and weakness to MS, etc etc. My legs don't feel as weak anymore, but my arms and hands / fingers feel weak, if i make a fist and squeeze hard, it feels strong like normal, but when i pick stuff up or open a bottole of water etc etc, i have like a weak feeling. Is it possible this is Anxiety, it just feels so unreal that it could be, i've had extreme anxiety for so many years and never experienced anything like this. I have an appointment with my doctor on the 10th of april. Any answers are appreciated.

[gtz222]

Update: the weakness feeling has for the most part went away, it comes and goes. Instead of the weak feeling, i started feeling shakiness in my legs when standing or walking and in my fingers. The shakiness in my legs has went away for the most part, it comes and goes. It is now mainly in my hands / fingers, really noticeable. I noticed muscle twitches also, in fingers / calves.

[APonyGirl]

I sent you a private email....

[gtz222]

i felt better lastnight for a few hours, almost felt like the old me, wasn't weak, was happy and in a very good good, i woke up and felt good, it happened again around noon, i feel like controlled breathing helps alot, it might not help right away, but it does help eventually. I breathe in for 5 seconds and then breathe out for 5 seconds and repeat it for 5 minutes straight, i have been trying to do it every hour, it seems to help.

[mike911411]

YEP SOUNDS LIKE ****** ANXIETY......I BEEN GOING THROUGH IT FOR THE LAST 3 YEARS....ITS THE WORST **** EVER. I GET A NEW SYMPTOM EVERY WEEK. THERES NO SLOWING THIS **** DOWN.I DONT CARE WHAT THEY SAY.....IT WILL STOP WHEN IT WANTS TO STOP!!!! IVE BEEN TRYNA MAKE IT STOP EVERYDAY FOR THE LAST 3 YEARS SO HEY YOU TELL ME.......IT MESSES  WITH YOUR WHOLE SYSTEM.......GOTTA WATCH EVERYTHING I DO AND EAT.....SUGAR WILL IRRITATE THE HELL OUT OF IT........LACK OF SLEEP WILL IRRITATE THE HELL OUT OF IT......DIZZY LIGHTHEADED BLURRED VISION CLOUDY VISION EYE FLOATERS TIRED ALLLL THE TIME NO MATTER WHAT ELEVATER BLOOD PRESSURE HEAVY LIMBS HEAVY BODY ACHES PAIN ON CHEST ON THE LEFT SIDE BAD DREAMS FEAR FOR NOTHING SHAKEY, CHEST VIBRATING SENSITIVE TO LIGHT, NOISE,  COLD AIR FLOATING SENSATION MEMORY LOSS LOW SEX DRIVE LACK OF APPETITE IRRITATING HEAD ACHE FEAR OF HAVING A HEART ATTACK WORRY SHORTNESS OF BREATH ALLLLL DAY, CONSTANT LIGHTHEADEDNESS ALL DAY, DEREALIZATION, LIMBS DONT RESPOND TO YOU, LOSS OF WORDS SLURRED SPEACH, SlOW HEART BEAT FAST HEART BEAT, CANT LAY ON YOUR BACK SOB, CANT LAY ON YOUR SIDE SOB, DRY THROAT, VEINS BUGGLING EVERY WHERE, PULSES BEATING EVERY WHERE, DRY SKIN CHANGE OF PH BALANCE, SCARED OF BEING STUCK THIS WAY NEVER RETURING TO NORMAL, AND MUCH MUCH MORE....I SWARE I HATE THIS.....I PRAY THAT WE ALL GET THROUGH THIS.......GOD WILLING.......

[gtz222]

I try telling myself over and over it's all in my head, but i never win. :(

[gtz222]

Yes, likewise. It is terrible, i feel like i am going insane from it.

[MAFA5050]

I experience the same symptoms you're currently experiencing. I'm sorry you are going through this. It *****.

[gtz222]

Thanks for the response APonyGirl. Yes the mind is a very powerful thing. It's just so mind boggling how real it feels. Sure, i am willing to try anything at this point, i will gladly look into the books if you give me the names of them.

[APonyGirl]

Hello,

Here's my two cents...from a fellow anxiety sufferer! Anxiety can create MANY unusual symptoms, as you probably know. From my experience, the more you focus on the symptoms, the longer they linger. Your mind is very powerful, more than you know. Your constant worrying and intense focus is doing nothing but reinforcing the symptoms. You create your own reality, and if you THINK or BELIEVE something is wrong, those thoughts get sent to your subconscious. You are essentially hypnotizing yourself and giving yourself suggestions...which then occur over and over. Your subconscious is creating these symptoms not to hurt you, but in reply to your constant barrage of beliefs that something is wrong. The subconscious will create what you desire....POSITIVE OR NEGATIVE!!

I have some books that helped me recover from most of my anxiety...I can give you the names of them if you want..

[gtz222]

Another thing i would like to add is, my appetite is gone, i don't feel hungry, i don't feel thirsty, i do have dry mouth, and even when my anxiety settles down to a point that it is bearable, i still feel that it is still there, my heart is still racing, even though it's not racing as fast as it is during a full blown attack.