tired of panic attacks

[lively2430]

I have  general anxiety disorder and panic attacks I do not take an meds and been dealing with this for over 8 yrs. Ik why I have them I'm afraid of death n I don't handle it. I was cut before in was dead a couple mins before being brought back and now I have serve anxiety,  it just comes out of no we're feel like I'm dying and I'm tired of it. I can't ever tell if something is really wrong or am I just panicing,  how do I get rid of this! It seriously controls my life, I'm an alcoholic also bc when I drank I didn't panic and I can't just drink my anxiety away,  so.  Has anyone over come anxiety and how?

[RubyWitch]

I am proud that you've done so much to try and change...........trust me, I know how hard it is.
I also know all to well what it's like not to have insurance or money to pay to see a damn doctor when you desperately need one!

I wish I had better ideas to give you about getting help............there MUST be some kind of Out Reach program in your area. Call your local hospital and ask them about free programs.

Call AA and talk to someone there. I'm sure they would have resources you could take advantage of. Or just go to a meeting and talk to people. It sounds like you're getting your drinking under control, but you'd still be welcome at a meeting.

Look in the Government section of your phone book for Mental Health care. It's usually the blue section.

Whether you are religious or not, talking to ministers, preachers, priests, rabbis..........whatever, they usually know how to help people find help and they won't turn you away even if you're not "of the faith."

If you live anywhere near a large university, the psychology department often has grad students ready and willing to take on patients for free.

You must NOT give up, especially if you've got small ones at home to take care of.  

If you were in a program before, even if it WAS court ordered, call THAT therapist and ask him/her for help. They probably know the "system" a lot better than I do.

What I do know is that if people really want help, they will find it. So again I tell you not to give up! You absolutely DO NOT have to feel like for the rest of your life!

And PLEASE be very careful with that Xanax!

You obviously have a computer, so spend time searching for mental health clinics or support groups. Just Google mental health care for your city and state and go from there.

I wish you the best. Stay strong and never give up!
RubyWitch

[lively2430]

Thank u for ur response,  I use to drink every day til I ended up wit charges no was put n mental health court, there is we're I realize we're my aniexty comes from,  I drink rarely anymore I've come along in two yrs.  But the aniexty is still here, I do deal wit it everyday just sum days are worse n when it's that bad I have a friend who gives me a few Xanax I do not n won't take them daily it really is a " as needed " medicine,  and that is how I take it, it just ***** to know that I will just have to deal wot this for the rest of my life, I've come like I said so far from drinking n getting arrested to back to being a happy stay at Home mom but as happy I as I am just can't shake it,  I had a treapist ( I'm sorry I can't spell the greatest lol ) and was seeing a doc n mental health but I'm no longer n program I completed it n moved to a different state, now really just don't got the money to go, why I  came on here, but ty for the advice

[RubyWitch]

I think it's a VERY positive step that you've realized you can't drink your anxiety away, and I'm sorry that realization didn't come until the alcohol began controlling your life.

It sounds like you went through an extremely traumatic experience and I'm also sorry you've been carrying this burden around for 8 years.

There is help out there, you just have to ask for it.
I would begin by seeing your doctor and telling him/her what you've shared with us. They will help you take the next step, which is to get you off the alcohol. They may suggest an in-patient rehab where you will get help for both the alcohol and the anxiety. I sincerely think this would be the best option for you.

As you well know, thousands of people successfully become recovered alcoholics and thousands of people either recover from their anxiety or successfully learn to deal with it. I'm not saying your road will be an easy one, but you CAN do it.

I won't lie to you. Both of your issues are very difficult to do on your own, and while there ARE people who manage to accomplish that, more of us need some help to reach that goal. And that's OK. It is NOT a weakness to need other people..........in fact, I think it's just the opposite. I think it shows great strength to know you need help and to reach out for it.

Please discuss this with your doctor. You do not have to suffer like this, you CAN regain control of your life.

I hope you will stay in touch with us and let us know how you're doing. Your courage in coming forward could be the incentive other people need.

Be well
RubyWitch