tottaly confysed

hi  i am a recovering addict drugs and booze i havent drank in 14 years and no drugs in 1 and a half years i have sever deppresion and anzity (sorry for spelling i am dislexic to) any ways my new docs says i have touretts i never herd of some getting it in there late thirtys i think its from all those drugs i took or a side effect from methadone or a release mecanizom from my sever anzity. it totaly mimics touretts,(uncontrolabel yawning like face movments,virbale out bursts (f***) word mostly, but i thaught you had to have it when your young and then it (most of the time goes away or minamizes when you get older??i know im not given enough info but can someone that knows about tourttes help or anyinfo needed. i yawn alot when i get nerves ( leave my house talk to people, go to the store , drive to far away from home (about 4 miles), and when im at home and my mind it racing.)and my body joilts when i sit in one spot or lay down to sleep my hole body will fly up in the air (like when your dreaming your falling and your about to crash and you joilt up out of a sleep well i do that totaly awake??? i think the joilts are from the heroin use and now the methadone,the doc's say" i have p.t.s.d, deperssion,sever anxity, touretts, when my mind is racing and i try and sleep i will see dead people and animals, grave yards, eye balls flashning, in color and black and white, and sometime i here people talking to me and asking me question i go to anwser them but i realize theres no on there.or i catch myself going to ans. before i do and my boyfriends in the rome,( thank god he don't hear me talking to myself!!!) i am saposed to take coniden but i can't because my script on paper ran out because they change it from 1 am and 1 pm to 1/2 pm or as needed.so i can't take the or i lose my metidone take home because my urine will come up bad so i haven't slepted in 4 months i am on a 4th day of being up strech.my new doc gave me a paper script to teel the to change it to as need , they wouldn't take it they want me to get a new script( i have 1 1/2 bottels still full!!) sorry youdont need tohear that just venting sorry..my left hand pinky is num and the one on side of it is 1/2num? mite befrom when i used needles not shure? and i have 3 boulging disc 3 in lower back and 1 up/mid back has nerve loss( hurts bad) but they say im fine, my legs ach alot and hard time brething, well thats all i can think of if you can give me any info i will listen please help
thank you totaly confued (sorryforspelling youneed spell check here and edit!!!!

[uxbridge689]

thanks i do not think its that either but tellmy doc(lol)
i am on clonidine 0.1 mg tablet i cut it 1/2 as needed it was working ok the my writen orded ran out so i cant use the even though i have 1 1/2 bottles let im on m,ethidone and if you urine comes up dirty i will lose my take home and i try to give them a wrighten letter from doc and they refused it.i could see if i was running out before the time but oh well its my fault .
the jolts start about 8 years ago way before i started any clonidine Mental Health doc put me on it for the anxity and the so called Tourette's, i tried to tell them it wasn't it but they won't listen all they think is i want drugs when i give the there drugs back all the time because i am afraid of the side effets( funny i didn't care about the drugs but i care about the meds effect. well thank for thr infi i hope i can find some one to listen