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Hi
Im sorry im tottaly new to this and did not even expect anyone to write back but ty for doing so.What i mean is even thinking about going outside right now were some one could see me,I start to sweat,even typing this is hard to do.I dont know what it is.I never ever talk to anyone about myself.I was always taught it made me weak.so this is a new thing for me.again ty for the response

[greenlydia]

Can't be sure, but it sounds like you are suffering from agoraphobia and possibly some fairly heavy duty social phobia. Who the hell taught you that talking about yourself made you "weak?" I don't understand THAT at all. Talking about yourself ALL the time can make you a bore, but talking about yourslef in a "give and take" manner does NOT make you weak. It makes you human! We ALL have a need to talk about ourselves at times, to express ourselves, to share our thoughts and feelings and fears.
Do some research on agoraphobia and if you can relate to what you read, then talk to us about it! There are many people here who struggle with agoraphobia and they can help you. You are NOT alone! And the entire purpose of this forum is to talk about ourselves! To open up and share what we are dealing with, how it affects us, how we cope with it, how afraid we are and to get advice and support and encouragement to keep on going...........and we return that help in anyway we can, even if it's just to let someone know they aren't alone.
Wipe your brow and write some more! lol
Peace
Greenlydia
You may have already helped someone by posting what you did! Maybe what you wrote will give courage to someone else to speak out about their problem. You probably have more to offer than you think.
ALL of us here have issue(s) we are dealing with.      

[dizzlle]

im stunned just to have you reply is empowering.And it came from my family.Only weak people need help.Im supppsed to figure out my own problems and fix them and carry on.I know it sounds silly but when you grow up thinking that its hard to change.ok looking up agoraphobia.. no idea what that is

[dizzlle]

omg .... it fits and its scary as hell.ty so much.the fact of needing some one to be with me all the time hit it head on.It is really hard for my family to understand this.They just think im being lazy.

[MrGreen]

Hey you are not a weak person. I was housebound for over a decade. That never made me feel like I was a weak person. Yes it can get you down. Because you see life passing you by and you want to be part of it. But there is a road back. It may take time. But it can be done. I am gathering your family are not willing to help you. So it is just you and us for now. Is there any chance you can see a doctor? Just to have a talk. The doctor will know if you need medication or not. May even suggest some sort of theraphy for you. To learn coping skills. And to find the root cause of your problem. It is always great to know how and why these things began. When they first hit we have a head full of unanswered questions. We are confused. Why us? Why now? Am I going mad? Loads of questions flick through the mind. They would all be dealt with by a therapist. Someone who you can talk to. Until such time you can maybe try and keep a journal of how you are feeling. Writing things down helps a lot. When you are feeling anxious write down what thoughts are going through your mind. How it is making you feel. Your reactions to it. Because over a period of time it is these things we will be trying to change. How we think and react. It is all locked together as one. One effects the other. But a journal of it can show a pattern. Then you will see what it is you have to face up to. And that can be done slowly. Going back out. The first steps are always the hardest. We want to run back inside. But what do we think would happen if we stayed? Fight or flight. More times we flee. At least at the start. But the more we learn the more we become willing to fight. We let those feelings hit us. Nobody has ever died from a panic attack. Those horrible feelings come on and you will see that they do also go. Once we stop running from them. The more we flee the more we are saying ' come on ', and letting those bad feelings hit us. But that is for further down the road. First things first. Doctor. You have to try and see one. Just as an initial step. Medication may or may not be advised by your doctor. He may try you on something light to begin with. But never feel you are alone or weak. The more you come to understand the problem / condition the stronger your mind will become as you unravel the pieces. Start putting your life back together. Then you will really feel strong. Like you can take on the world. But remember, don't run before you can walk. If you try too much too quickly you may fall harder. So break it down and take it one small step at a time.

[dizzlle]

Thank you so much for the reply.
I have been to a doctor and i am on medication effoxor and mertasipine..not spelled right im sure.I think they have worked a bit.But they cause weight gain and for me that is not going to work out well.The more weight i gain the less i can go out .. go figure.I would really like to understand why i feel this is it real am i just insucre.Did you really not leave your house for a decade? how did you do that? how would you eat or buy clothes or.. oh wait.. we are masters arnt we.I get others to do what i cant or wont do.
I have a doctor i can talk with once a month.The other side effect is lack of sexual desire that is a tought one also.makes me feel sooo guilty and i will checkout the other form ty.