The only thing it will help you is to Come your self down and relax.Breath out breath in.Prayer,therapy Those are things That will help you.I was Suffering from Panic attack as well.the only think is left is Anxiety.
Hi,
Nothing I read in your post is out of the ordinary. I can relate to the abusive household but the why's don't really help us in the present. I used to have terrible panic attacks a few years ago. What helped me was telling myself mantras that helped calm me down. Things like feelings are not the truth. Off course it won't help you get over a panic attack but it helps you accept the physical sensations.
Most of tend us to do everything to avoid the things that make us panic but the best way to overcome this is to do exposure with the things you fear so you can come to accept the sensations you feel and eventually, with small steps, do the things you used to do.
Have you ever looked into cognitive behavorial therapy or group therapy? It helped me a lot. If that's not an option you can always look into the Linden Method which was a lifesaver for me. Feel Good Reviews has a review (feelgoodreviews.com/reviews) on the program. Hope this helps :)
Do you also have certain things that trigger your panic attacks? Maybe sensations in your body or certain thoughts about what you're feeling?
Do not feel embarrassed or ashamed, it's just how you deal with your panic attacks. I am the complete opposite I have to be in a tight confined space preferably with blankets and pillows. Too much space and is an overload, we all go through this differently. Maybe instead of running outside you could fan yourself with a paper or open the windows instead. Also I have a habit of packing around my medication as sort of a safety blanket. This may help you just knowing you have a way to calm down in the event that you do have an attack. As for sleep I highly recommend getting a stuffed animal or favorite pillow, as childish as it sounds it's a comfort to know that you have it. Also just a dog or cat in general would probably be excellent at relieving some of the stress and pressure. I hope this helps and remember you are NOT alone.