Hi guys. I've been having a crazy time these past few months with my health. I've had so many different symptoms, including a fever for two months straight (still have it now), shin and forearm aches, muscle twitches, headaches in one spot in my head, fatigue, malaise, cold intolerance, everything. I've also experienced this weird pain that wraps around my neck under my jaw before on several occasions (feels like my jawbone or even lymph nodes hurt), some middle back/rib pain, and some blurry/double vision problems (note, the vision issues were NOT severe). I went to a rheumatologist after my primary doctor saw I had a slightly elevated CRP and a low positive ANA. Other things (like platelets) were a little on the high end, but not over. My albumin was also slightly elevated, and I was low in vitamin D. I talked to the rheumatologist, and he asked if I've had dry eyes. I told him no, because I've never noticed my eyes to feel dry except when I wear contacts. He zeroed in on the minor eye issues I mentioned (and ignored the main complaints, which were the aches in the shins and forearms), and sent me to an optometrist who told me I indeed have dry eyes. I was sent for more blood tests looking for things like myasthenia gravis, but I haven't seen the results yet.
I'm so terrified. I did some research online - bad idea - and all I see are stories of people who say sjogrens has ruined their lives and even caused them to drop out of work. Coincidentally, I started noticing some rough feeling patches inside my cheeks around the time I saw the rheumatologist, and now all I can think about his how dry my mouth feels. I think this is just my anxiety though, because I have no problem eating, tasting, or producing spit. I can salivate at will perfectly normally. So I'm thinking this is just an illusion. My cheeks feel a teeny bit sticky to my teeth, but I don't know if you can only have dry cheeks (that sounds impossible), and as I said, it could just be the rough patches. They are colorless, painless, pretty mild. I started chewing gum again recently, and they seemed to have improved somewhat since I stopped.
The main thing that freaks me out is reading all these stories of people with sjogrens complications. Frankly, I would take chronic pain over dry, sticky eyes and a dry, uncomfortable mouth. I have endometriosis, so I'm used to dealing with pain, but this just sounds horrible. I have this awful, sinking feeling that once you get one autoimmune disease, it's only a matter of time before you get other ones. I see all sorts of people on the internet who started out with one thing like sjogrens, and eventually, they have everything from lupus to rheumatoid arthritis. I'm crossing my fingers that this isn't sjogrens but something else instead, especially since dry eyes and dry mouth was NOT what sent me to my doctor in the first place at all - that wasn't even on my radar, especially in light of my other, more noticeable symptoms. My symptoms have fluctuated over time, coming, going, and worsening over the past few months. Some things, like the fatigue and fever, has been consistent, as well as the aches and pains in my arms and legs (but even those have seemed to improve a bit over the past week or so). My primary doctor tried to refer me to an infectious disease specialist, but they said there was no need for me to see them. Frankly, at this point I would prefer cancer to an autoimmune disease. I know it sounds horrible, but it's true. At least you can cure cancer. An autoimmune disease is for life.
I can't be one of those people who only talks about their pain and how even walking up the stairs is a daily battle. I don't want to be one of those depressing stories. I don't want to be a downer to all my friends and family, someone who only identifies as a "fighter" and a "survivor" as their main identity - I have endo, but I don't like to call myself any of those things, because it makes my pain seem more permanent and powerful than I'd like it to be. I'm only 18, and all of my friends treat their bodies horribly and feel absolutely fine. I don't want my life to take a downward spiral when this is the time things are actually supposed to start getting better. I've avoided scheduling a follow up appointment because I don't want to hear bad news.
Please help. I don't know what to do. This has been very depressing and nerve wracking.