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This is group was designed to give support to grieving parents who's infant has become a Baby Angel. May you find comfort within this group and know that you will never have to walk this journey alone! God Bless All of Our Baby Angels!

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My little Angels name is Cooper. He was born on June 6th, 2008. He was born with a heart condition called HLHS. We found out about his condition at his 18 wk ultrasound. Of course our world was shattered but we were prepared to fight!

The day after Cooper was born he was taken to Children's Hospital. It was there that we met the most amazing nurses and doctors. We could not have asked for more loving people. After two weeks in the NICU, Cooper underwent his first open-heart surgery. Sadly things did not go so well so they had to operate a total of three more times. On July 23rd his doctors told us that he was not going to make it and we had to make a decision. I was not prepared for this at all.  Thankfully my brave little Angel made this decision for us.  He was in my arms the last time he took his last breath.  His chest was still open from his surgery and I could see his little heart stop beating.  At that point my world had ended. I was ready to leave this world and be with him again.

It has been a little over a year since my little man became an Angel and I know he has never left my side.  Through the help of my husband, my family, my counselor and my support group, I can now smile again!  Cooper  blessed us with so much! He even gave us his little brother! Cruz Cooper was born on August 11th, 2009! This little guy will grow up to know all about the love and hope his brother brought into this world!!!

I have plenty of pictures of Cooper on my profile page, so feel free to look at my beautiful little angel!

Thank you for reading my story and thank you for sharing yours with me!
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Wow Rachel....I had no idea you could actually see Angle Cooper's heart stop beating, so heart crushing for you.  You're such a strong woman and now you have such a beautiful baby that Angle Cooper sent to you.  As I always say..."Things Happen for a Reason"

Love Ya
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Hi, my name is Amberlee and my Angel's name is Aidyn. After 21/2 years of trying on our own, my husband and i went to see a fertility Dr. We had one failed IUI and one successful IVF cycle. We ended up getting twins but sadly miscarried one at 6 weeks. My Drs watched me very closely and finally after 12 weeks said that everything was fine and took me off high risk. They didnt see anything that could have possibly indicated what was going to happen.

At 20 weeks, 2 days we decided to register for our shower. After leaving Target, i started having contractions. Everyone i talked to said that it was too early for anything other then Braxton Hicks and gave some remedies to make them stop. Well they all worked so i assumed i was fine. The next morning at church my contractions started again. I again thought, BH. We went to In-N-Out for lunch and as we were eating, i told my husband, something seemed wrong. We couldnt get ahold of any of my Drs so we went to the ER where they first said i was fine and almost sent me home. The on call OB asked for an internal exam where they discovered my amniotic sac bulging. My sons foot was in my cervix and at that point, there was nothing they could do but keep me there hoping that if i laid flat in bed for at least a few more weeks, he might have a chance if he was born. God had other plans that night because at 11:36pm on September 28, 2008, Aidyn Denen was born. Perfect in every way. They said he lived for about 3 minutes or so after they cut the cord. I remember that night like it was last night and yet on Monday, it will be one year.

The Drs told us that there would be no way we would be able to have a baby again without Dr intervention. I am Proud to say that they were wrong and like Rachel, we were blessed with the help of our Guardian Angel with a healthy baby boy 10 days ago. Bryce Deran is our earth Angel and Aidyn is in Heaven but with us every second of everyday. Without His sacrifice, Bryce would not be here. The Lord does some amazing things and i hope my story brings hope to those who have none at the moment!! I as well have pictures up of my sweet Angel Aidyn. Please take a look if you wish.

Thank you for reading.
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Thank you so much for sharing. Your story made me cry all over again.  God Bless Baby Angel Aidyn!
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My little Angel's name is Kayln. After going through a m/c in Dec. 2005, we were suprised to find out we were pregnant again at our RE's office the first month we went! No medicine even needed, a complete suprise! I went to have a HSG test done to find out why we weren't pregnant yet after almost a year, and to everyone's suprise, during the test, there was a sac in my uterus! My RE rushed me over to his office where a pregnancy test and u/s were done! And there on the screen was my little peanut, with her heart just beating away! I'll never forget that day, it was the happiest day of my life! Although we were told to be cautious b/c of the threat of m/c now (because of the dye) we remained optimistic, and she was a fighter, she held on!

At 35 weeks, I started to have contractions at work, so I immediately called my doctor and of course talked to the nurse instead. She told me it was BH, and to go home and lay down, that it was normal. So it being my first delivery, I listened, and they did go away. The next day, I felt fine so I went to work. My vision became very, very blurred and the lights seemed SO bright, like I was staring right at the sun. (Later, I came to learn this was a sign of what happened to our baby.) It only lasted for a few minutes, and then everything returned to normal. I had no idea what to think, and stupidly did not call my doctor...

Two days later, it was our work Christmas party, December 16th. I woke up that morning, on my own, which I immediately thought odd because usually Kayln woke me up. I just assumed she was still sleeping, so I went on about my day and started to clean the house. When I would sit down for mini-breaks, she still was not moving. And then I really thought that was odd, because she always moved when I sat down... But again, didn't call my doctor... By 5:00 that night, I still hadn't felt her move, so I called the ER. They told me to drink some soda to get her moving, which didn't work b/c soda makes me sick so I could only drink a few sips. A couple hours later, we decided it was time to go to the ER, and we recieved the worst news of our lives! They rushed us up to L&D, put the contraction belt and h/b belt on my belly, and there was no h/b! An u/s confirmed that our sweet Kayln was no longer alive. My husband and I were devestated, words can't even describe the feeling you have when a doctor you don't even know looks right at you and tells you your baby has died! I think it took a second for it to really sink in, and then I jumped right up and screamed and begged the doctor to do something!! He said there was nothing they could do. Right then and there, my heart stopped beating. Someone had physically reached into my body, took it out and threw it on the floor, and then stomped it to peices!

They induced me that night, and Kayln was born the next day, Dec 17, 2007 at 4:15, with the cord wrapped around her neck twice and a very, very tight knot in it. I was honestly scared what my reaction would be when I saw her. I think most of all, I was scared to see my husband's reaction. I was scared we wouldn't want to hold her, that it would be too hard... As soon as she came out, they took her over to her little bed and cleaned her off. My doctor looked at me, and asked me if I wanted to hold her but my hands were instinctly already out waiting for her to bring her to me! She was the most beautiful baby I had ever seen! I just couldn't believe how from one look at her, I was SO in love and amazingly, SO happy! I FINALLY was able to hold my baby, who looked like she was just sleeping! She was perfect in every way! We were able to keep her in our room for 8 hours, get lots of pictures and everyone got to hold her. It was definately a bitter-sweet day, and those 8 hours just went by too fast! I'll never forget when the nurse came in at midnight to take her, it was the worst feeling ever because I knew that I would never again be able to hold her! (Even though 2 days later at her funeral, I was able to hold her for an hour. It was the best feeling to be able to see her again, hold her and kiss her again!)

Grieving has of course been the worst part. I will never get over the loss of our baby, never! She is always in my heart! I begged God to bless us again right after we lost her, not to replace HER but to replace this emptiness I felt, but he had other plans! I think Kayln finally convinced him it was time, because we are now 27 1/2 weeks pregnant with her little sister, Adalynn Noelle! Our prayers have finally been answered, and I thank God every day for our new blessing, but am fearful that history will repeat itself. I just continue to put my trust in God, and can only pray that he will comfort me and let us keep this baby here on earth. I know Kayln is watching over us and her little sister! I guess we'll never know why things like this happen, but I know it only happens to the people who are strong enough to go through it...  Kayln, mommy and daddy love you so much! We think about you every day! You were the best gift we could've ever recieved! You are truely our miracle! Sleep tight, sweetheart! Love, mommy and daddy

Thank you for letting me share Kayln! This is a wonderful idea! I only wish I could've had a site like this to go to after losing her, but am thankful that there is now for other women who are grieving the loss of their angel, and for women like us who have already gone through it, and still will always feel the heartache of our losses. Even though we are at a different stage in our grieving, it will never truely disappear, so again I'm thankful that I now have somewhere to openly share our sweet Kayln!! I too have pictures of her on my profile. Please feel free to look!
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What a beautiful story for a beautiful Angel.  Your love for Kayln is strong and it will forever be felt by others..............especially that precious little  Adalynn in your belly.

Thank you for sharing!
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Just wanted to say...I'm not yet ready to share the story of my angel (although some of you already know it). But, I truly hope to one day be happy again like you three seem to be. I, too, want another baby to pour all of this baby love I have into - but I don't think it's going to happen. Unfortunately, I had a tubal when Ian was born in July. I am considering getting it reversed - but that is not 100% successful. Anyway...I will write the whole story about Ian some time - just not tonight. My loss is still very new (three weeks today) and today I am hurting so badly I just want to die. My eyes are stinging and swollen from crying to long today, and I feel like a hollow shell of the person I used to be. Please pray for me, ladies...I need all the help I can get.

Tricia
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Tricia,  I pray every night for you.  I pray for God to comfort you and to bless you with another baby.  It is so heartwarming to hear the others stories of surviving and their angels blessing them again.  I pray God and baby Ian can do the same for you.  My heart still aches for you.

You are all wonderful women.
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Oh Tricia, I too pray for you daily.  I don't know what to say except I love you my friend and hope that in time you find peace again.  XOXO  Amanda
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Tricia, share when you are ready. Just remember we are all here for you and you will never have to face this alone. Let the tears flow, cry as often as you need. Believe me I did not know it was humanly possible to cry so much.

You are such a strong and brave woman. You will forever be in my prayers!
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tricia i had the same experience. I had my angel in the almost in the same way.my angel was born as if theres nothing wrong. just pray it really helps a lot. what happened to us is a very painful but god has better plans maybe soon he'll give us a stronger baby.. which we cant take care until our hair turs to gray just pray tricia.your angel willl not like it if she sees you crying. They know how much we love them though were not able to hug them that long.
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I am so sorry for all of you.  I will Pray for you Tricia.  There are no words that can make it go away.  My story:  I am a mother of 5.  I had had my 4th child and unexpectedly found ourselves pregnant again.  I was so hesitant and don;t really think I fully accepted him until October 1st of last year I found out he was a boy..(not that I cared, I would of been happy either way).  I went shopping.  Everything I thought looked great.  I had a little spotting but nothing big..  They suddenly the morning of 10/7/08 changed everything.  my water broke..  I knew being an RN that he would not make it..  My heart broke too..  The ambulance came and took me to the hospital where I saw it in their eyes. I was told I would have to deliver..I was 18 weeks.  I prayed he would go to heaven so he would not have any pain..  I labored painlessly for hours..  (they gave me an epidural, that actually worked).  I delivered my perfect son at 10:22 pm he weighed 6.5 ounces and was 8.5 inches long..  I held him for hours..  It will be 1 year on Wednesday and we will be in Disney World.  I am now pregnant with number 6 and cherishing every minute of it.. MY son's name was Cooper Earl, after my grandfathers.  I won't celebrat this baby until 28 weeks.  Feb 12,2010.  I will celebrate my family all of it..  God Bless..    
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I am so sorry for your loss.......

Just know he is an angel watching over you and your family!
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My little angels name is Miley.  She was born on the 25th January 2009.  It was a very long and painful induced labour but I was told over and over that all was fine, and it was until her little head was born.  Once her head had come out the midwife reached down to unloop the cord wrapped around her tiny little neck, she found it was "too tight" and told the doctor so.  He stood there with his arms folded and did and said nothing.  I felt two bit jolts and my partner who was watching her later told me it was her gasping for air.  For some reason the midwife and doctor waited 6 minutes before they decided to pull her out.  By this time she was gone.  I watched them pump on her tiny little chest and stick her with an adrenalin needle in her still heart.  They did this for about 20 minutes but it was too late.  He then put our little girl on my chest and said "this baby is dead, sorry" and pretended to wipe his eyes.  We got to spend a few hours with our baby but it should have been alot longer.  To this day I struggle to look at other mothers with their precious little bundles of joy without thinking, gee i wonder if Miley would look like that or simply crying!!  We are trying for another little one but its not so easy.  I will love our little girl forever and will never ever stop thinking of her!!!  My heart goes out to all you other ladies who feel the same way as me.  Take care.  Marina.
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Oh Marina, this sorry to heart wrenching. This is just so unfair and so unjust. I am so  very sorry. My heart is just breaking for you.

I have looked at Miley's pictures several times and she is such a beautiful little girl! She looks just like you!!!

I know what you mean about wondering what they would have looked like as they grow. Wondering what they would sound like and how they would grow up knowing they were so very loved.  

I pray that Miley sends you a little brother or sister real soon. Not to replace her but to help you love with that part of your heart all over again. Baby Angels are very special and I know that she is taking very good care of Mommy and Daddy!!!

Thank you for joining this community!

Rachel
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Hi Everyone! I'd like to start off by saying that my heart goes out to each and everyone of you. My name is Lori and my Angels name is Salvatore Mark. I found out at my routine check up on 10/15/08(Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness) at almost 5 months that his tiny heart stopped beating for reasons we'll never know. I was induced the following day and delivered early the next morning. My world was shattered. I got to hold him and love him for a few hours, but it wasn't nearly long enough. The anniversary of his "angel" birth is on Oct. 17 and i'm finding this to be a difficult time. I'm glad I stumbled upon this group and was able to share my story.

                             Thanks Rachel
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Hi Lori! Thank you for sharing the story of your sweet little Salvatore.  I know as his Angel Day draws closer it becomes very difficult all over again. Believe me I had my first with Cooper this summer. Surprisingly, it actually brought some comfort and closer. The first everything is so hard and this was the hardest.  I pray that you find some strength on this day. Go and celebrate your little man, because he is in the best place ever. I celebrated this day with my family by getting a pedi!!!! My motto is "live to make your little angel proud"!!!!

I really appreciate you letting Salvatore into our lives!!!!!
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I have never experienced a loss of a child and therefore don't know how difficult of a time you ladies have, but I joined this group because I want to send you all my thoughts and prayers and want to tell you that I believe you are the strongest women I have ever had a chance of getting to know.  Sending big hugs to all of you and to all of your angels.
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On August 16 2009 - mine and my husbands 1 yr wedding anniversary, our hearts were shattered.  I did not feel my baby move for the whole day so went into emerg.  They sent me straight up to L&D where they hooked me up to the strap fetal monitor.  They could not find a heart beat.  They wheeled in an ultrasound machine and performed an ultrasound.  I could see my baby on the screen looking so lifeless, they found his heart and it wasn't beating.  I looked at the Dr and said "thats my baby, its gone?" and as her eyes filled with tears she simply nodded.  My whole world fell apart in that instant.
The next morning I was induced and on August 18th at 2:44 am my son Jonathan was born.  We did not know the sex of our baby and we were so delighted and proud we had the first grandson on both sides of our family.  
He was perfect in everyway! We had an autopsy performed and several tests that all came back clear.  It has been nearly 10 weeks and we are desperately longing to have a baby in our arms. I hope that I will be able to bring a baby home one day to pour all my love into. I miss my baby more than I can bear.  
I will pray for all of you angel mommies to have strength to carry on!
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I am so sorry for your recent loss. Please know that we are all here if you need to talk. Just know that your little angel Jonathan is watching over you and your husband.

God Bless.
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I am truly hurting for you..........this is such an intense pain you are going through, but just know that it WILL get better!!!!

I am sure Jonathan is looking after you everyday. I bet you feel that love in every tear you cry!

Stay strong my friend and thank you for sharing your Angel!!!!!!!!!
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Thank you for your kind words!  It is a wonderful feeling to know that I am not alone and that people are thinking about my baby.

I never thought I would loose my son - I was 35 weeks pregnant so I thought I was in the clear by that point.

Thank you!!!!
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I first of all want to express my heartfelt empathy for you.  My little Angel was born on October 10th 2009.  The finding out process was almost entirely the same, this is our first baby and was to be the first grandbaby on my side of the family as well as the first boy.  I was 23 weeks and hadn't felt him move for almost 2 days...this was my first pregnancy and therefore just didn't realize the need to call the doctor.  They sent me up to L/D and tried to find the heartbeat with the doppler....then wheeled in the ultrasound machine...then brought in the doctor on call who still couldn't find the heartbeat...there was no mistaking-there wasn't one to be found. It was more than heartbreaking.  It was easily the most heart wrenching pain I've ever experienced and hope to ever experience-my heart goes out to women who have to go through this experience.  I was induced that day and delivered our sweet little Bridger on the following day at 4:20pm.  He as 1.6pounds and 12.5 inches long.  He was beautiful, the most amazing miracle I've ever seen.  We got to hold him for hours at the hospital, wishing he was able to hear us say how much we love him. My arms still ache for our precious little baby. I am once again, so sorry that you and any woman has to go through this.  It will be 4 weeks tomorrow for us and our little one and what I woudn't give to hold him again!  
Our little babies are watching over us and I know that they know how much we love them!
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This is probably the hardest forum post I have had to read since i joined Medhelp over the summer. I joined after I had my IUD out back in June...we concieved right away. We both wanted a little boy but it didnt matter either way. My pregnancy was going well and I was so excited to go to our anatomy scan to see the sex. My husband and I both guessed it was a boy but my daughter said girl, however when the U/S tech started the US she was very quiet. She wouldnt turn the screen around and I knew something was wrong. There was no fluid around the baby and there were multiple cyst on both of the kidneys. I just knew there was nothing to be done but we had to wait another day to see my OB doctor. She told us it didnt look good but we needed to see a high risk doctor. Our baby had a strong heartbeat and was still moving. When we went to see the High Risk doctor she confirmed the worst...the cyst werent compatible with life. So I had to deliever the baby and my labor wasnt bad at all. Our little Matthew was perfect to us. He has very broad shoulders and looked just like my husband with my lips. The next day we had prayer service at the hospital with our family.

I'm trying to get things back to normal at my house but its so hard. I'll be attending a support group in the next couple of week and I'm hoping it will help.
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wishing- I am so sorry. Your story is heartbreaking. I am so glad you found us and I hope we can bring you some support.  

ready4baby- thank you for sharing your story with us. I am so sorry you had to find this site. I wish you still had that little one in your arms.  

Just know that your baby is always watching over you! Please feel free to message me when you need to talk!
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first off i just want to say i'm sorry to every single one of you ladies who have lost their little one, my hearts go out to you and hope you find peace. before i begin i lost a baby at 8 wks as a miscarriage in aug 07, 3 months later i got pregnant again and on valentines day of 08 we found out we were having identical twins, at that point i was 14 wks. we went to our 20 wk scan and found out we were having identical twin boys.... we were so excited things were going good then it got quiet. we found out our little anges had twin to twin transfusion syndrome known as ttts, and i had an incompetent cervix. well there were only 3 places in the united states at that time who could do the precedure to try to help with this and take care of it, california, florida, and ohio. well 3 days had passed and we got my insurance to cover all costs and drove to cinncinatti ohio where we went through many tests and etc. during that time they checked my cervix on day 2 it was so short i wasn't able to walk at all bed rest for rest of time and wheel chair while at the hospital. we had echo's done on twins as well as other tests and was told it had progressed to a 3 out of 5 and 5 is death of one or more twin. i was immedietly released from fetal care center and sent to l&d at university hospital. there i met with a few doctors who told me the precedure that i would  have a cerclage then amnio to reduce fluids and had to weight for my cervix to be so long b4 we could have the operation we went up there for. well next morning my doctor wasn't there so an hour late another doctor shows up and wheels me to the Operating Room, gave me my spinal/epideral and etc, put the curtain up so i couldn't see ne thing. well i was told to lift my legs and i didn't know what whas going on bc couldn't see and sick ... well the amnio was done first which then started contractions and labor, when they went to put the cerclage in i was told it was too late, i had bulging membranes.  they sent me to recovery for an hour or so, and during that time, my water broke. i was rushed to labor and delivery and within an hour i had my lil angel preston. he was only 8 oz at 21 wks. and i held for a few moments and then pain started bc of going into labor for the other twin. they took preston bc he was still born. a lil while had passed and i had aiden he was right at a 1lb. he was still breathing and you could see his little heart beating, i was devistated and so upset , my bf held him but i couldn't image knowing my baby was going to die. they told me there was nothing they could do, i never got to hold him and regret this to this day. there isn't a minute that passes that i don't think of him and wish i could tell him how much i loved him but i it all happened so fast i was distraught and it was terrible. i cried for days, weeks and even now here and there when looking at pics. the nurses made a scrap book and took some pics for me. i never got a death certificate bc they were a few days shy of 21 wks i was told.  i was released at 7pm and the following morning we drove back home to tn empty handed. i didn't have a funeral for them. i miss then more and more everyday. so i lost my two angels on march 20, 2008; my cousins birthday; my family was in florida with my grandfather bc of his cancer. it was a terrible day. it was 3 days b4 my 21st birthday i got home the day b4 my birthday. aiden lived for a lil over an hr b4 passing away. but in the end i know i wouldn't have my beautiful lil girl madison if that didn't happen. and i can't see my life w/o her.
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At 20 weeks of gestation we got recaled for our ultrasound because they had seen problems with our child. When we got there they discovered that he had possibly Meckel-Gruber syndrome. We were devastated as they said he would probably die in utero and if he did get to t erm he would die shortly after. They suggested abortion. We decided to keep our child and give him the chance to die on his own. They did all kind of genetic research and it all lead to the same conclusion that he would die soon. The pregnancy went well despite all that and at 37 weeks I gave birth to a breached child that we named Jacob. He lived for 16 minutes, the best minutes of our lives. He had all the symptoms of a Meckel-Gruber child but in our eyes he was the most beautiful baby ever. We do not regret our decision to let him live
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I just recently lost our second angel.  In Dec. of 2008 I went in for a regular u/s, the tech told us that our baby boy had passed away.  I was 18 weeks & 4 days.  The next morning I went in for a D&C.  We found out we were expecting again in Dec. 2009.  After our 1st u/s & AFP screening we were told that our baby had a 1 in 3 chance of being born with Down Syndrome.  We were scheduled for an amnio to be done on 03/22/10.  Thursday morning, 03/11/10 I woke up & knew something wasn't right.  I went to the E.R. & was told that my baby had passed.  I was 17 weeks & 4days.  We were admitted into the hospital Friday afternoon & they started induction at 2 p.m.  Our baby boy was born at 2:52 am Saturday March 13, 2010.  It was my brothers birthday & the day before our 1 yr. wedding anniversary.  He was absolutely perfect, 7.08 inches & 5 oz.  We gave him my husbands middle name, Alvin.  They asked if I wanted to hold him & I knew that I needed to.  DH could not handle it & he left the room.  It broke my heart that he did not see our beautiful baby boy but I understand that he couldn't do it.  Unfortunately I only got to spend about 45 minutes with him.  I called the nurse into the room because I was not feeling well, she checked me & I was bleeding very badly.  I ended up needing a D&C because the placenta did not detach.  I lost 25% of my blood & needed a transfusion.  We had a small tissue sample sent to the lab & hopefully this week we will know what (if anything) was 'wrong' with our baby.  We are also meeting with a specialist on April 12 to have both of our blood tested to see why we lost 2 babies at almost the exact same gestation. I am not sure if we will try again.  DH seems ready for me to be preg again....I am not quite so sure.
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Me and my fiance have been trying to conceive since Dec 09', after making the decision were ready to start our own little family on Christmas Day.
We got pregnant 18th May 10', and got engaged on our 2 year anniversary 20th May 10'.

I found out I was pregnant 10th June, the most happiest day of my life!! I couldn't believe it..
I was engaged to the love of my life and going to have his baby. My world was complete!
However, my pregnancy was short lived. I miscarried on 16th June at 4 weeks 1 day.
Although I was really early, my world was torn apart and my heart was shattered.
Throughout those 6 days of pregnancy I was very nevous, and scared that something was going to go wrong.
My younger sister give birth to her 29 week old baby on the landing of my mum's house at 4am in front of me 3 years early. Although he is a smashing, healthy 3 year old boy who I cherish with my all heart, both him and my sister was very ill. My nephew spent the 1st year of his life, having several serious operations.
The 14th June my pregnancy was confirmed by my GP and I was looking forward to growing a huge belly. This day I began spotting pink. I immedialtely began worrying like mad. Everybody told me not to worry its normal but I couldn't help it. The spotting didn't last long but I was still paranoid.
The next day around lunch I began to feel pains, I knew something was wrong now. I rang the NHS helpline, by now I as spotting frequently, who told me to go see my GP.
My fiance took the evening off work and we went straight to the ER. I was still bleeding and the pains were on an off, I was still spotting.
I spent the rest of the day at the ER doing urine, blood tests and scans.
They sent me home around 5pm that evening saying everything was fine. I went home shattered but happy and fell asleep til the next morning. When I did wake up I felt strange, really strange. My pregnancy symptoms had disappeard and I was very emotional, I burst into tears for no reason and cried for hours.
When my fiance returned home at 3pm that day I had bad pains like period pains, I was passing rather large clots.
We rushed back to ER where I passed my 4 week 1 day old fetus.

5 months on... I have been diagonsied with PPD (Post Partum Depression, a depression that women get after giving birth), and I have spent months off work BUT am feeling positive and my wonderful fiance and I are TTC again hoping this month is our month!!

I think this post is a great idea and I have found alot of comfort and advice here on MEDHELP, I have even made a great friend..

Want to say am sorry to all the ladies who are going through the traumatic time our losing a little angel, and I wish you the luck in the future..
Wishing everybody who's TTC a BFP soon!!

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Hey hun

That an unbelivable story... cant believe what you have went thru.. xx
I am truely sorry for your loss I dont have the slighest idea how you felt.. we have never even had a BFP in the whole 12 months we have been trying!

Soo glad I could find you on medhelp... really happy to get to know you and travel our TTC and pregnancy journeys together!

I feel emotionally for you and I want a healthy happy pregnancy for you as much as I do myself!
xxx
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Hello I just ran into this site today I think its a good one.

I also have a baby girl angel in heaven. I had waited so long to have her I had been TTC for about 3years. Well one day I was having UTI sx and went to the Dr and asked if they could do a HPT and they said yes well they told me that I was pregant and I was in shock because I didnt believe it. I told my husband and he was so happy it was his 1st baby. The Pregnancy went smooth I was High risk because I had Diabetes.

I told my OB that I was very worried and asked he was going to send me to High Risk OB and he said that there was no need for it that everything was good the sono's are ok etc. I had sono alot to make sure the things were ok. I was to go to the Hospital at 35weeks for my C section on June 10, 2008 and had my beautiful baby Girl at 10:30am her name is Ximena Hernandez.

Everything was well they took us back to our room to show everyone our new baby to our small happy family. on June 12, 2010 in the evening the nurse took the baby give her a bath and check out everything so we could go home in the morning, Well I started to get nervoues because it took them go time to return then the RN came to my room to tell that our baby was no ok she was breathing to face and they thing she might have a URI so they were going to check things out run some test and do an Chest XRay. Well then they came back and told me they were going to send upstairs to ICU.

Then I became realy scared because I didnt know what to expect to hear from the Dr I finally asked them to tell what is going on and they said that the Xray showed that her Heart was on the Right side and they would do an echo the echo showed many other Heart defects. So she was flown to KC Childrens Mercy Hosp. There that the Hospital they discovered that she only had one Kidney. I asked why couldnt they tell me this before from all the US I had done no could answer me.

She was waiting on a surgery date while the wait she developed Tacycarida and other problems. 3weeks and she had open heart surgery to repair her little broken heart she made out ok.After a couple of days she was good so they tried to take her off her breathing machine but couldnt handle it. Never did she gave us a scare and her heart stopped and she coded it was the worst time of my life to know that my lil princeness was going to leave this earth without even seeing the sun or fell the wind on her skin or that I was not going to get to see her grow up. Well she made to though the CPR God gave me a few more days until July 24, 2010 she passed away in my arms.
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My Angel story happend on October 10/2010 this will always be the worst day of my life.
When my water broke @ 12:03am that Sunday morning I was only 20weeks I knew what was happening but did not want to accept it. We drove to the Hospital my Dr. The Speciallist and the Pediatricion told us our baby boy Sebastian had no chance it broke my heart I could not belive this was happening to us. When he was born he had already passed I remember the last kick I felt like if it was yesturday it has been the hardest thing we have ever had to go throw my two kids were so sad and my husband was in shock but very suported I dirent want to see anyone or talk to anyone for weeks. I'am pregnant now 19 weeks and very scared as the weeks go by and hits to 20weeks I had a Cerclage done at 14weeks but the fear will always be there. God wanted our Angel with him but now he is sending us another baby Boy we will never forget our Sebastian when they ask me how many kids I have I include him. This is my Angels story I cant Stop crying as I type and read all the sad stories of our Angel babies.
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My little angels name is Isabella she was born on Feb. 14,2011 and she died shortly after birth. I was 38 weeks pregnant and had no complications. I really wish i knew why she didnt make it so i could have a peace of mind I have plenty of pictures of her and now i just found out i am 5 weeks pregnant i am really scared and worried because i dont want to loose this baby too.
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