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I am 39 years old and, frankly sick and tired of trying to figure out why I feel the way I feel, why I act the way I act, why I do some of the things I do. i am in a marriage for 10 years and not all bad but not all good either. I have one child, a daughter, 10 yrs old this month. A wonderful child. I do feel blessed in many ways but I am at the end of my rope. I have some symptoms of bi-polar disorder and symptoms of this and that and the other thing. I am diabetic and have been for 15 years. That is the only diagnosed medical problem I have. I am experiencing the highs and lows associated w/ BP and I am looking for some answers and actually some more pinpointed questions from people who know and successfully live w/ and manage the disorder. I am not sure where to begin or what info to add here but I am ready to begin a journey to heal. I am at the end of myself. Needing assistance to know where to  begin.                                

[alison_x]

hello! Im going through the same thing. I know somethings going on with me and has been for about 9 years, and I have no idea what, although Im trying to be brave enough to find out. I have found it very helpful to write stuff down when Im experiencing my erratic moods, so if my doctor is unhelpful, I have back up!  Like me ur best bet is a trip to the doctor to find out whats going on and give yourself some probably very much needed peace of mind. I know how scary that concept is, as Im currently trying to work up the courage myself!
always happy to chat if u want to

alison

[Xila31]

I do say go to the doctor. I find the mood tracker here pretty useful and I print it and take it to my appointments. That really helps me show the doctor where I have been. A psychologist or psychiatrist is a good move here. A psychologist, though, can't write medication prescriptions so you will need a psychiatrist to do that. I know it is hard because I'm really just starting to get help myself, even though I know I've struggled with this pretty much my whole life. So, I say get help and don't be afraid to get help. I wish I had tried harder sooner.

Anyway, I hope that helps.