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Affair during mania

I recently confessed to my husband of an affair I had several months ago. At the time I felt justified for the affair because of a lack of sexual compatibility with my husband (my sex drive is pretty high and we were having sex maybe 2-3 times a year due to other issues in our marriage) and the feeling of being admired by someone was intoxicating. During the affair I felt confidant but I also couldn't help but feel that my judgment was all screwed up and it wasn't normal behavior. I put an end to the affair and confessed and my husband and I decided to reconcile. I realized that I needed to correct my destructive behavior and try to work on my marriage but now I feel immense guilt even thinking about resuming intimacy with my husband. I also do not believe that my husband would ever want to be intimate either. I do know that he masturbates a lot to porn and has used masturbation in replacement to sex with me (one of the issues that caused our problems to begin with) but instead of feeling hurt and desire for sex with my husband, I feel guilt. I want to find a way of getting rid of the remainder of my libido (am on antidepressants and my sex drive is nil) so I can get rid of all sexual desire. The idea that I will never have a normal sex life is depressing enough and I do not want to be reminded but I really want to stay with my husband even if I give up sex. I also want to prove my loyalty to my husband  and give him reassurance that I will not cheat. I am very confused right now and need to get other people's opinion on
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Its best to distinguish between what is a relationship issue and what is an issue with medication. Some medications can have a dampening effect on the libido but that's a side effect not what they are there to take for. If the relationship isn't working out due to lack of physical compatibility best to go to relationship therapy and discuss what is going on. Medication is neccessary as treatment but you can't medicate real feelings. Those should be discussed over with a talk therapist. There is also a specific forum to discuss relationship issues as well.
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Well, being a woman, I know the importance of feeling love and connection mentally with a man to to feel intimate.  In my experience unless the fire is there it can almost be repulsive to have sex with someone...but, this is just me.  I guess what I am trying to say is the mental connection still between the two of you, it doesn't sound like it but I really have no way of knowing.  Perhaps if you guys took it slow and spent more time together doing  and sharing you time ...good times, simple things, but just sharing perhaps it could help.  You  know, getting to know each other again.  

I am by no means the person  to be  giving anyone advise on relationships as I have failed royally at them but can just relate some of the thoughts and feelings I have contended with in a relationship.  Marriage counseling may help also, but, I have never had experience with marriage counseling so I can't really say.

Most imortant thing for you is to remember there were reasons why you had an affair.  You were lacking the love and closeness from a man.  Someone came along an filled that void that you were not getting fulfilled.  Please do  not beat yourself up over this as  you are only human and have needs.  It sounds like your husband has issues also. Your marriage was in trouble with issues when this happened it .  I hope you can work things out and it doesn't sound like an overnight fix and just like any marriage, both people must be willing to work together to make it  happen.  .









I feel like I  am rambling, I'm sorry.  I wish you the best and hope that you and your can get this worked out and I wish both of you happiness.  
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