Thanks for the encouragement.
I'm just having emotional throwing up right now....if you know what I mean.
Doctor put me on mood stabilizers two weeks ago.
I was on my old med's for over a dozen years. I did had episodes of depression but recovery time was quick. I'm so amazed how subtle this episode came on. It really took me down. My regular medications I used for the longest time didn't work.
When I was in NV. My moods were in mixed state. It felt really weird. I couldn't stop laughing too.... I laughed at everything. It felt real good but I knew this wasn't the right laughing. I was high on my highs. My husband and son "gave me the eye" and I knew that I was going overboard. If I didn't go to my doctor right away I knew I was going into a serious crash depression.
It just amazed me. Couldn't explain it.
The only thing I can think of is Menopause and the right mixture of badly behaved children was the straw that broke the camel's back?
I will never know this mystery. It will go on the ash heap of been there and done that.
Today and tomorrow I'm staying home.
I'm going to really rest up and listen to what my body is saying.
Doctor just increased my dosage again which makes me sleepy, grouchy or smiling.
I know tomorrow will be a better day.
The meds do work....I just need more patience.
I'll get back in the saddle again.
You do lose your nerve to get back on though.
It will show lack of character to the disabled students I deal with if I become scared and run off.
Disclosure is up to you. They can't fire you for your disability. If that ever happens you can contact the EEOC. NAMI has good material as regards anti-stigma campaigns. You have nothing to be ashamed of. A psychiatric disability is genetic. Independent living centers have good material as well:
http://www.ilru.org/html/publications/directory/index.html
Who you disclose to is up to you but you have to disclose to your supervisors if you require a reasonable accomodation. As to whether you want to disclose to other people that's up to you but a person I know who works in a psychiatric hospital as a social worker and has bipolar disclosed at my encouragement and they recieved positive responses. Just state the facts though. Don't tell your life story. But that applies to anything. Keep your job though. Its part of your life and income.