I have battled with my Bipolar for 15 years. Twice in my life I was miss diagnosed and give medication for depression or anxiety which both made me worse . When I went extremly manic after being prescribed medication for aniexty I was then prescribed Valpro and olanzapene. I stayed on these for a year as dirrected and basically lost that year of my life to them. I couldnt do any everyday task, I was numb had no energy at all I couldn;t even climb stairs. It affected my memory and I put on 20kgs. I has taken me another 2 years to work through and find my personality again while battling all the fears that come from being in a coma on valpro. That is the short version, I will never take Valpro again but have used olanzapine to stablize myself when I was coming of the valpro. I have also used diazapan rarely if I cant slow my thoughts down, but never long term or for days in a row. I have been under pscologist for over a year now and this has been working very well. i am working full time and have two children and very loving and wonderful parnter but stil battle energy levels. I would say lack of energy is the main contributing factor to alot of my behavioural issues and mental anxiety. It is very difficult to get up out of bed sometimes and completing every day tasks such as cooking and general cleaning is almost impossible and I have to battle with that which adds extra pressures and makes it more difficult for me to keep not only stable but to move forward and tackle other worries etc. I work hard every minute to better myself and stablise myself. But this can be very tireing. Approx 6 months ago my GP suggested I take Duromine for my weight issues. I was 96kg and only 160cm (20kg due to 2years ago Valpro) I was excerising (walking) and eating well but the pressure of my weight and thelack of energy was taking its toll and making this another battle to fight. He suggested a short term program with duromine, I looked it up and found alot of people went fast on this and was weary but he suggested we take it slow and see what happens.
I was on 15mg for 4 weeks then we up the dose every 2 months approx
On duromine I felt normal for the first time in years. I was aware of going to fast so I was watchfull about that but didn't have any problems with speed like symptoms. I slept better and awoke normal. I was organised and able to do regular tasks around the home ie cook meals and vacume and clean . it no longer feels like a physical effort to do things , I may still have the mental effort (: but general every day tasks that used to sap my strenght and energy are now easier. My family and friends have noticed the more positive me. Some of course due to losing 10kg in weight over 6 month period. This has all improved my quality of life and helped me be stable and productive i even play with the Kids now. Thus it has taken alot of pressure of my and my condition.
I am aware of the sidre effects of duromine. The only side effects I expreience is on the first 2-3 days of increasing a dose. I am tense and irratable but are aware of this and can control it. I don't go fast or experience heart pulputations. Infact I don't experience any high manic symptoms or high level depresssion syptoms. I am aware the duromine effects the seritonan is this why.
The question is : how bad is duromine for me? What is the long term solution? Can duromine be taken long term at low dose for stability?
Is there any other option medically for me that helps me in this way because every other medication that I have tried its side effects (lack of energy, numbness, mental fog, memory loss, weight gain, anger, frustration, sleep disturbance, nighmares, hair loss, tremors, not to mention the long term pscological effects it has had on my confidence ) have always decreased my quality of life, I cant work and I become a Zombie to my family.