Can any one help adress my strange craving?

[Snakenstein]

I dont really know where to post this, but ive been posting damn near everything on here, so i suppose i'll continue. So ive been having this strange craving for months, no food, drink, or item will satisfy it. It even appears in my dreams, as food, every night i dream of this craving. Ive been wondering what this is for some time now. Its bothering me so much! I think its contributing to my binge eating. I am a little worried, that ghosts are draining me of my vital energies, because of how psychically connected I am. I felt them on my wall tonight, and im a little worried thats whats been making me crave things, the draining of my own energies. Anyone psychically connected in this board? Any advice to make this stop?
Im going to drain some of my boyfriends energy, next time he comes to see me. Im a little worried if this continues, they might kill me.

I was originally going to write to you, if this craving was some unfulfilled something or other, and if this was psychological. But now, im more concerned about all these spirits that inhabit my poor little apartment building. There not telling me anything. But they'll just go away, pop back up, then switch rooms.
If there is anyone psychically involved on this board. HOW MAY I PROTECT MYSELF?!
I am panicking so much right now. ;~; Help plz.

[paranoid_cataclysm]

@ yggdrasil
I still have a bad habit of the chewing the inside of my mouth for that.  I think I might try the gum chewing thing to break myself of it because it seems like half the time I just do it from force of habit and possibly anxiety.

@ Snakenstein
Like ILADVOCATE was talking about I can give personal examples of psychiatrists I've been to on the opposite ends of the spectrum.  The worst one I saw diagnosed me with like I don't know how many things but I remember clearly how he said to me I had some form of mental retardation with a fancy name that ended in retardation in less than five minutes of talking to me because I kept hesitating to answer his questions (which at the time I knew absolutely nothing about what was going on with me and I still have trouble talking about internal things even now) because of how dumb that was of him and then he changed my diagnoses every time I saw him.  He would stop talking and toss out a diagnosis in the middle of talking like he had diagnosis tourette's or something.  The other one which I have now seems good so far, he took me off medications immediately which one had possibly life threatening side effects and the other I felt extremely disturbed from due to side effects and he goes for the lowest possible dose which should be like second nature for all psychiatrists especially since they told me my body is sensitive to antipsychotics at least and we also even ask each other how we're doing in other aspects of life and such.

[ILADVOCATE]

I've seen a lot of psychiatrists that had no idea what they were doing or didn't care. It was only when I saw a psychopharmocologist that I got the level of help I needed. They are "medication specialists". Then again sometimes its not the level of speciality but the degree of understanding and support. Your mother may or may not follow through but it would be essential for someone to. Like many people I found out how to find a psychiatrist that was helpful and supportive through calling my local NAMI chapter. Seeing a psychiatrist on an individual basis is often better than a clinic but it depends on a person's insurance coverage.

[Snakenstein]

However..it may break the connection from the spirits until i have a spiritual awakening, and can handle them. But those kind of medications can make you defendant. Because if i ever start im going to stop eventually..

But yeah, not like its actually going to happen. x]

[Snakenstein]

I honestly dont really think i'll ever see a pdoc. My moms wanted it a few times but she never follows through with calling anyone. And besides. I probably wouldnt want to take any medication....And it would take a very special person to understand me..
If i really wanted it, i might have to beg and make sure my mom follows through but...
I have this fear that "treatment" might make me the governments zombie...

And...
Last night, I tried to swear off my psychic ability temporarily. For my own safety, im trying not to get possed again.. However, im not sure if it really worked....

[yggdrasil]

The condition of feeling compelled to eat non-edible items is indeed called Pica.  While I do not have it, I do understand the craving for blood.  Frankly, it just tastes darn good.  I used to chew the inside of my mouth pretty much completely off to get blood without having it be noticeable. Eventually, I used gum when I started doing that, and started taking my steaks blue instead of medium-rare like I had. While the meat doesn't fully replace the blood (actually, nowhere near), it did make it manageable. If all else failed, I would go to the store and buy some freshly cut meat and eat it straight out of the package.  I still crave blood, both the sight and the taste of it, which is probably why cutting is so satisfying for me, but I found a way to push it to the backburner so I can go about my life--without bloodsucking.
As for the draining of energies, at this point I think it is 50/50 whether your mind is playing an aweful trick on you or if there really are malevolent spirits taking your energy. My guess, the entities were so attached to their most recent lifetime they are unwilling to let go, remember, choose the next life, forget and then incarnate. The idea of not being who they were scares them. But it takes energy to resist the pull, so they take it where they can find it. Perhaps meditating in the place the drainage happens, connecting with the... astral plane is the best name I can think of... and dealing with them in a form (astral projection, to be consistent in terminology) that you are on equal footing. This is one instance where having a physical form is a major hindrance.  I bet, however, having the support of friends--those who understand--having them in the room with you, perhaps even joining you, would be a great boon.
However, I would keep a written journal and make an entry after every time the drainage happens and look for patterns that you can use and can take to your pdoc or tdoc.
You need anything I can help you with (e.g. advice, support, or a pep-talk), send me over a message.
Be Well.

[paranoid_cataclysm]

If you have that problem write everything down and refine it over the course of a few weeks or longer if needed and then take it with you to the psychiatrist.  This will help them diagnose you correctly if you described it properly.  Sounds like the therapist you got was one that needed to be fired, not all of them are like that at all.

[Xila31]

Strange and inexplainable cravings for things that are not food (including blood) is actually a condition. There are people who crave dirt, metal, plastic, wood, hair, cloth, and pretty much anything you can think of, including more normal things like ice. I think it is called Pica. It can actually be quite dangerous and I'm not sure what causes it. These are things that you need to talk about with your doctor. Please don't ingest any blood as it can be carrying bacterias or other harmful elements for your body and make you very ill.

Just because you have had one bad experiance with a therapist doesn't mean you will never find someone that can help you. You need to find a psychiatrist that spcializing in working with teenagers and young adults who are having difficulty with psychosis. My own delusions started when I was 12 years old when I was in 7th grade. It all began with seeing a video at school that scared me from what I can tell. Like ILADVOCATE, I was terrified that I was going to be abducted by aliens while I slept.

[ILADVOCATE]

An anti-depressent alone can often worsen bipolar as a full mood stabilizer is needed to treat that. This list should help:
http://www.psycheducation.org/depression/meds/moodstabilizers.htm
and this as well:
http://www.psycom.net/depression.central.bipolar.html
could be discussed with a psychiatrist but its good to inform yourself first.

[Snakenstein]

I was misdiagnosed at the psych hospital because I didnt tell them anything. They put me on zoloft, which made me manic, i stopped taking the medicine after it was force fed. And the therapist they assigned me was horrible, and she really disliked me because she never understood what I was saying. She said I was too vague, and I didnt make much sense. She got frustrated with me several times. =/

Overall not a good experience.

[ILADVOCATE]

If you have been in a psych. hospital before then perhaps you were on medication. Maybe there's a way to schedule an appointment with a psychiatrist before things get out of hand. I remember when I went off medication  15 years ago before recovery at first things just seemed strange. Then they started to get out of control. Then after a while it was too late and I signed myself into the psych. hospital. Best to speak to a psychiatrist and explain everything and then you could work with them to decide what medication is right for you and would help you best.

[Snakenstein]

Oh my god me too! I actually attempted to drain some people of there energy because "if i couldnt get there blood, energy is the next best thing". I actually had it set up to get some sterile needles and draw my friends blood. I was put in a mental hospital shortly after that, (but it was for attempting suicide), but that was never brought up of course..

I still crave blood, a lot.

[paranoid_cataclysm]

I have a craving like that but never really attributed it to anything.  Sometimes I crave blood speaking of this but at first I thought it was a physical problem but then eventually got delusional and thought I was a vampire because of that and other things pointing to that assumption.  Also had ones similar to what IL pointed out but some of them went away on their own while others keep coming back even if I figure they're a delusion.  Used to have plenty of other things happen that were probably psychotic but seemed psychic before I got on antipsychotics.

[ILADVOCATE]

I would think it would be best to talk this over with a psychiatrist. Before I started psychiatric treatment I had delusions that aliens were invading the house and were going to abduct me overnight and many other things like that. After things have stabilized then you can see what your take is on these issues and what other things have contributed to them that may be psychological as well.

[peaceinmyheart]

If you are a believer, You need to claim the blood of Jesus Christ and command the spirits to go with the authority that Jesus has given you. Christ is the only way the demons will leave you. If you are not a believer and want Jesus to reign in your life and save you from the demons..... pray this prayer... Dear Lord, you are the master of heaven and earth, I believe that you have sent your Son to die on the cross to save me from death due to my transgressions. Would you send your holy spirit into me, to dwell in me and guide me. In Jesus' Holy name, Amen.