Depressed...

I feel so depressed right now and when I get this way I feel stuck. I feel as though all of my moods make everyone so unhappy around me that it'd be better if I weren't around. I don't know what to do with myself and it's always when I'm around the people that mean the world to me that j get so bad and at like work I feel fine and happy but once I come home I'm depressed and nothing ls good enough. I hate myself when I'm like this I dont understand what's going on, what do I do...

[Z95]

Have you been to see a pshyciatrist for a possible diagnosis and to get you on some meds. I have bipolar disorder and I know how you feel when the world gets to much and you don't want to get up or wake up one more day. I would strongly suggest that you maybe go to a pshyciatric hospital in your area, and don't worry about what other people think or say it is a good brake and you can regroup. It helps a lot.

[AmandaH707]

I've struggled with depression since I was about 12 and I'm now almost 23 and recently found out I'm diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I take 20mg of lexapro daily... I feel good now stillca bit of that heavy feeling inside letting myself get like that but sometimes I can't get in control of what I feel. I just don't know what to do to meet my meds have way. Any advice on effective coping skills or home remedies?

[AmandaH707]

When I experience those episodes  the next day when I look back it feels like a dream, or nightmare

[STA1]

I get the same feeling to. Like i hate showing myself unhappy around people but at the same time i want to be myself. But i do things to keep myself moving forward, like what re some things you have a passion for?

[a_marie981]

I have bipolar ll and I know exactly the way you feel.  It's like you want to isolate yourself from everyone because you feel you are a burden on them.  Also that feeling comes along with lack of motivation and hopelessness and Personally I tend to try to sleep it away in hopes that I will wake up feeling better about myself but in fact I just tend to feel more and more that everything is pointless.  You should talk to your doctor about maybe starting on a mood stabilizer or antipsychotic to take along with your antidepressant.  It might take a little while to build up in your system to get the full effect of it but I know when I was first diagnosed I kept having the same issues with the feeling not being relieved because I was just on an antidepressant.  It was when I started taking an antipsychotic that my symptoms finally started to get better.  My psychiatrist also warned me that just taking an antidepressant can send someone who is bipolar into an episode.  So if I were you I would definitely talk to your doctor about this.