Does anybody think the same?

[Tyzer33]

Without trying to come accross as being too negative, I would like to ask If anybody has the same opinion that with bipolar its just how long you can hold out before you just dont want to fight anymore, and end up taking your own life. I ask this question because im stable enough at the minute but I still think this will happen someday? actually I think I have accepted that this is the inevitable.

[Jikan]

Namaste,

First of all, suicide is not inevitable for a person with bipolar disorder, although statistics do show that the suicide rate is higher for those sufferring from biploar disorder when they are in the depressed phase of their disorder.

With proper treatment, however, the odds of committing suicide change drastically.  If you are receiving proper medication(s) and possibly adjunct therapy, such as counseling,  you are very likely to live out your life pretty much as close to "normal" as we can get.

The choice to seek proper treatment, develop a treatment plan and follow that plan is up to you and your healthcare provider. If  on the other hand, you refuse to participate in your own recovery, you are playing "russian roulette" with your life.

I would be amiss however, if I didn't encourage you to contact a qualified mental health provider as soon as possible, meet with them, an follow their direction, even when you think it's useless.

Several times, I thought I knew better, I was frustrated and depressed and didn't think my medications were working for me, so I discontinued my medications and ended up in the hospital, twice for attempted suicide.

I sincerely hope that you take your condition and the possible outcomes very seriously and seek the help that you need.

Good luck!

Michael(Jikan)

[RubyShooz]

Suicide is your brain LYING TO YOU.  Do not believe those thoughts.  If you can only hold out and wait an hour, a day -- you will realize that suicide is not the answer.  When you feel those thoughts, reach out to someone immediately.  Call a friend, a neighbor, a relative, a school coach, teacher, minister - you must talk to someone, about anything, just to get your mind moving in a different direction.

If you don't want to talk to anyone you know, call your local mental health hotline or simply dial 911.  I know it is difficult, but you need to get help and not act on those negative thoughts.  Call your doctor right away, of course.

Know that things will get better for you -- it may take a day, a week, a month -- but please do not give up on yourself and on life.  I know, I have been there with those awful thoughts -- but thankfully I was able to wait it out until things seemed better for me.
Hugs,
Ruby

[bernie40]

Hi, you sound as if you are very down.  I don't think suicide is inevitable.  I think that with the right medication and therapy (as Jikan said) you can live as near a normal life as possible and the right medication will stop those mood swings and you shouldn't get so low that you contemplate suicide.  If however you don't take the medication then yes there is a possibility that suicide becomes an option, which is why you should never stop your medication.

If you are feeling like this then please chat to someone about it, if as you say you are stable and these are just general musings then just look at the logic of Jikan's message and mine also - bipolar requires medication to remain healthy,

All the best
Helen

[triedeverymed]

I think it's in all of our minds at some point. It's part of the disease. Having good coping mechanisms helps when/if that time comes. You need to have things you say to yourself to talk you out of it and then must call a crisis line or speak to somebody if that feeling comes over you.
I think everyone with Bipolar has gotten fed up with the fight to stay well at some point if they are being truly honest. It doesn't mean we act on it but I'm sure we've at felt it.
Hang in there!!

[Nikki2226]

I understand how you feel.  Suicide seems like the only option sometimes, even when you do your best to try and get stable.  But it is NOT the only option and surely not the best one.  I too feel like I'm just hanging in there as long as possible.  I have done my best to get help, I take my meds and go to bipolar skills training meetings, and get help on this website.  I ended up in the hospital a couple of weeks ago, got my meds adjusted and I still feel awful.  But there are people out there that are stable and able to handle life.  We could be those people!  I think we have to hold on until we find the right treatment plan that can beat the suicidal thoughts out of our minds.  Please hang on for dear life!

[dorsey15]

Dear One-- I use to ALWAYS think SUICIDE was the normal thought everyone had..from the time I was 12 years old...I am 48 now... I promise you!! It is not the TRUTH!! It is our UN MEDICATED minds LYING TO us.  PLEASE !! PLEASE get some help now..
If you are not medicated properly or on medication NOW--you need to be and you also need a VERY GOOD COUNSELOR to explain to you how bipolar actually works our brains.....
I DON'T BELIEVE today that suicide is a option like I once believed!  I KNOW TODAY it is just that sick mind playing tricks on me when the thought comes around....I will tell you that being on proper medication that that thought hardly comes around like it use to..
PLEASE !! GET HELP and God bless.
Dorsey

[Tyzer33]

Thanks for your replys, in reference to your replys I am on meds, and see a number of professionals. I am quite stable at the minute I just always have these thoughts at the back of my mind and i believe that im only at the begining of my bp journey and that theres only going to be one outcome. Thanks again for your replys.

[Betty8791]

Thank You so much. You just articulated one of my greatest fears. I hate to admit, It's almost a comfort to me when the pain in my head is at the point of unbearable, BUT, I haven't given up. I know it's painful, but keep fighting it, 1 min at a time if you have to. Just keep hangin on.