i had another nightmair last nite that my boyfriend was cheating on my with a girl he got me to be friends with and it was so realistick and painfull. when i woke up i txt my bf and had a go at him for the dream cuz it felt real
A few weeks before my diagnosis I began having vivid nightmares
I had one where I shot my best friend at the time in the head after a arguement.
I had another dream where I saw this guy doing something illegal. Because of this he decided to kill me so he caught up with me and chased me down my street then I tried to jump the fence and he stabbed me in the leg ....this is embaressing but I also strted wetting the bed every night (durring that time.) There were other times when I had dreams durring sttressful situtations like I was having a difficult time with finanaces and I had this strange dream where I was in a mall I walked into a store full of china dolls and decicded to pick one up. Thats when all the sequins fell off her dress and the sales associte walked up to me and told me it was broken and now I would have to buy it except I was flat broke....
when i was younger i would have a nightmare every month that some one was killing my friends one by one . i dont have that dream now but it was scarey and ended up with me getting stabbed in the chest.
I have dreams that tell me that I am manic, but they are based off of the trigger of the episode. Usually the person (or people) that "drive" me to this state are trying to hurt me in my dreams. It seems that the identification of my trigger (and the separation from it/them helps me to rebound from having to be hospitalized.
Your dream kinda reminds me of the movie of The Wall by Pink Floyd where Pink is a kid again and runs into himself as he currently was at that point in time and he gets really scared by what he sees. Of course it was probably either symbolic of him realizing he wasn't doing very good finally or he was hallucinating or dreaming the situation. Can't say I ever ran into my "old self" but I did have a holy sh*t moment when I finally became aware of a lot of the symptoms and such.
Yes that sounds really frightening. I have dissociative nightmares sometimes for reasons that are other than psychiatric. I have been documented as recovered (you could read through my posts for more info. on that) but I had one nightmare where I ran into my "old self" before I was stable. I was psychotic then and I am aware of it now but I wasn't then. The "old self" (I did look psychotic at the time but things weren't working as they are now) came rushing at me, somewhat lunging at me. It was really frightening but it reminding me that I was in some way I was afraid I would "turn back into the way I was". I talked it over with my psychiatrist and I realized that in addition to the antipsychotic agent they are studying in me that I also needed to get back on a mood stabilizer. That was a while back and now I am on a mood stabilizer and mentally stable (as close to normal as I've been in my life). I always reminded myself that it was somehow magical thinking in anyway to believe your dreams were true but when they remind you of something you are afraid to face up to and can discuss with your psychiatrist or therapist then it actually is quite the opposite. A psychiatrist or therapist can often tell a person more than they might be aware of and it can be quite helpful.
Yes, i just had one of those last night actually.
I was laying in a bed at the childrens psych ward, but instead of 2 beds there was one large one that I shared with a girl who was not familiar to me, and there was a cat that jumped on our bed and began to sit and paw us and lick my hand. For some reason, i was afraid the cat would hurt me, but she was not. After the cat finished playing with her, he came over to me, I was afraid he would scratch me, and he did but he was just trying to rip my shirt or something so i could get out of it. But then after i allowed him to rip my shirt, the cat looked up and its face was replaced by a womans and her eyes rolled back in her head. I screamed, but no sound came out and i saw the decaying body of the girl beside me. I ran out of the room to see if anyone was there, all the other rooms were locked but the room to the younger kids were open, so i kept motioning them to get out (but they wouldn't move). Then I realized that i was dreaming, and pushed myself out of the dream. I felt absolute terror mixed with complete agitation toward the end of the dream. I woke up very upset and angry, and the feelings remained throughout the day. At one point I was debating on whether or not to just end it. =/
I remember, about a month before my mom died, she suddenly suffered from this thing where she was unable to make sentances. She could talk but she would just say random words and it didn't make sense at all. And she would just stare at us with this extreme terror in her eyes because she was a very intelligant woman. It would last for a few hours then go away. I think that was the first sign that something was about to take her away. But, your dream reminded me of that.
Well... I sort of had a dream like that a month ago or so but not in that context. It more showed me what life would be like if cognitive confusion happened constantly for every single movement I would try to make and such and actually scared and disturbed me even though it was actually someone else with schizophrenia that I was observing in the dream at how he was incapable of doing anything but he isn't a real person I know but he was a friend of a friend in real life in the dream. They might as well of been paralyzed from the neck down although after several tries they could get it right but it also effected their speech and such and there's no way of telling just how bad the guy's hallucinations and delusions were since he effectively couldn't communicate at all. Weird thing is though I don't know my friend's living situation at all but after I told him about it he said it was weird and started equating all of it to his living situation.
I am a very vivid dreamer to begin with. I know that in the past when I was having some very hard times I would dream about zombies every night. Zombies chasing me, or I was fighting off the zombies with a shot gun. It was very crazy and cinematic. Those dreams stopped and I usually don't dream about zombies very often any more. But at the time it lasted for about a year or more. I don't know if that really has anything to do with my bipolar, though.