This may not be a question to post here, but ya'll are my 'advice' board & understand how fragile 'our' mental state can be. I'd appreciate any advice ya'll offer. I need a shoulder to borrow to see if my mental state will survive, or to see if I am even in the right ballfield...
Most/some of ya'll know I have been VERY ill, fragile since September 3rd of last year. I had a hernia in my tummy that required immediate surgery.
The surgery went well. I was released after 2 weeks. I was weak, but healing.
After 2 weeks my surgeon removed the staples & told me to let my surgical area 'air dry'.
He told me that I could travel as long as I didn't drive on a 10 hour trip, if I stopped frequently to stretch.
The DAY I was to leave my wound (8 inch cut) opened, a inch at a time. I was draining at a FAST rate. I called immediately & cancelled the trip. (My middle son's wedding) *sigh*
The pain was horrid.
I went to the ER by ambulance, the DR tried to push the excess drainage out. He was finally told by my Surgeon, via phone, to bandage it an not worry...as if?
More pain pills...
Fever & chills, horrid pain, draining so much I was putting bath towels as bandages. I went to my family DR & she was horrified. A trip to ER later confirmed 'staff'....
2 weeks in the ICU & nearly dying, staff so bad you could scoop the white gunk out.
The DR took me off all Bi-polar meds for those 2 weeks, I was in such a feverish, morophine dosed state I couldn't even think.
Finally, my Abilify was added back & my regular meds.
Installed a 'wound vac' & Home Health care was added....
My entire psychological state was altered. From September till currently I have drainage. I am finally down to 3 bandage changes a day now...I was taken off the wound vac Dec. 19th
I am STILL not released from the surgeon. My last visit is the 25th of this month, IF it has sealed. BUT, it is beginning to pull apart where the incision is. Albeit only about a 1 inch area, but ANY is a concern to me at this point.
It is still an inch deep (used to be 6 inches deep)
I am just now, beginning to get energy back. I was so weak I could NOT walk up a step. I had to use ramps. I could not lift myself up from a sitting position until this last month..
Wow, this is long, I apologize. My personal DR told me she was documenting each occurence, she made a HUGE deal over letting me know this.
I think total I was in & out of the Hospital over 20 times. I am STILL on antibiotics, & pain meds, though I TRY to not use those very often.
The date is March now, my surgery was Sept....
Am I crazy/stupid for thinking this Surgeon is partially, or ultimately to blame in my 'care'?
Thanks for listening, & if what I posted was wrong, or in the wrong area, I apologize. I just don't want to look a 'fool' or tread on toes that I shouldn't...
I just know I was/am so fragile I can't handle being laughed at.
Blessings, Tres