I have been involved in a relationship for about 11 months now. In the beginning it was absolutely perfect. He was so sweet, loving and just wanted to be together all the time. It was truly wonderful. After a couple months, he had some serious depressed states where he just didn't want to do anything, talk, nothing, even spoke about just 'giving up'...Now he has been struggling with some stresses as well in the past years, serious abdominal issues as a child, loss of his mother about 7 yrs ago, and in the process of divorce from his wife of 15 years with 3 children plus not having a job nor insurance. He openly discussed all his 'issues' with me and I would always try to be supportive & understanding when he was feeling down or depressed. As time went by, our relationship kept getting more of the ups & downs, he would get frustrated with me for everything, even when it came to my job (Bar Manager). I knew that he had a difficult with my job so to show my true love & committment to our relationship, I switched back to my previous career of just corporate with normal days & hours. Things haven't changed, it almost seems to be getting worse. He had a beyond drunk episode a couple weeks ago that truly scared me with the way he acted, so out of control & spiteful. When we finally spoke, he turned it on me for not talking to him & refused to talk about what happened. Since that, he has become even more pulled away from me. We finally had a chance to talk this past weekend when at first he didn't even want me around to later saying that he thinks he had an 'episode' and feels bad. But by that point, I have been holding all of these festering feelings inside that when I finally had a chance to talk to him, I truly exploded. I apologized over & over again and it seems that I'm the one always apologizing for both of us. He says he loves me on the phone but then won't talk to me, return my calls or texts for a day & says he doesn't know how he feels about 'us' & loving me. I am so confused, heart broken beyond belief, frustrated and just don't know what to do anymore. My biggest problem is that I love him so much & I don't know how to talk to him or reach out to him anymore....How do I know when it starts, ends & when or if I should even talk to him about it. Sorry for so much, but I guess it's truly starting to consume me & I'm just looking for some kind of insight. Please help....