I need to learn to care I guess

[misterhamtastic]

I don't care.  Name a topic... nope.  No emotional response.  No hate, no love.  Apathy is all I seem to have now.  What am I supposed to do?  I don't want to kill myself, but I really don't want to live, and I don't care anymore either way.  I'm not sure what to do with this, you know?  Am I having suicidal thoughts/urges?  nothing unusual.  This blanket of apathy towards them is a bit concerning, or I see that it should be concerning.  Ah well.  Give me some direction someone.

[misterhamtastic]

that's the answer I was seeking.  Thanks

[ILADVOCATE]

If you have suicidal ideations that are realistic go to the hospital. If you have thoughts that are disturbing call your psychiatrist as soon as possible. If you don't have access to your psychiatrist call a crisis hotline. But if you don't know what to do and think you might do something then yes going to the hospital is a good idea.

[misterhamtastic]

at what point do I decide this is intolerable or unsafe and time to go to the hospital?

[ILADVOCATE]

If you feel a loss of emotions that is a common part of untreated depression. That would mean your medication isn't working as should. Speak to your psychiatrist about having medication adjusted and/or changed as needed but let them know before it gets worse.