First call your dr. there are meds you can take until you get back to your confort zone.Mania and depression flip flopping will burn up brain cells.Call a friend that knows about your illness and make a contract with that person that you won't hurt yourself or any one else. Hang in there it will pass but not without intervention perhaps.Be Blessed
I see you live in Alabama. Have you thought about moving?
Wishing you all the best,,,
Before you use the razor remember that only 6% of people who do actually die so your chances of ending your life this way are slim. You have counselors at your college - have you contacted them? What are the resources there at your school? They must have some.
Of COURSE you're not wasting forum space with something as important as this! Don't be silly - do you think they'll run out of room? You are young and in college - I'm so jealous! I had to quit when I got pregnant and I'll always regret it. The world is your oyster, child. You had better call that suicide help line because I believe your situation implies that your problems are much more in your mind than in actuallity. You need counseling and meds, sweetie. Reach out.