I just posted this on another website - I figure what the heck - the more the merrier! I will copy and paste! (It seems that more people are out and about here_
So, I want to make this a short post but don't know how I will manage that! About 4 or 5 years ago I became very very depressed. There was a lot of things going on - it was horrible. Recently, I went to the doctor for ADHD (after putting this off year after year) I briefly spoke about the depression to him and he mentioned Bipolar II. I said, oh no I was just depressed - I was immature and blah blah blah. So, I get prescribed Vyvanse and nothing - just extreme tension and irritability. I see him again and he offers to subscribe me Lamictal for my "disorganized thoughts". Now, I am a case manager in the mental health field and he knows this, so he is aware that I know what the Lamictal is for. I still say, no oh no, and I get a prescription for Focalin. And it seems to help a bit with my memory and all. I look on the internet and explore Bipolar - thinking I have missed something. the first thing I read is people waking up really pissed off and I think , Whoa! Then I read on and read about mixed episodes and I am just shocked. When I was depressed I had racing thoughts, would sleep for a few hours over a couple days, punched multiple holes in my apartment walls, put my hand through a window when I was angry, got into arguments with people I didn't know, spent thousands of dollars, had a few "minimal" audio-hallucinations (hearing my name called, hearing my phone ring, hearing music at night when my head hit the pillow). So, (I am trying to make this short) I recently saw him and said that I felt that he was really on to something with the bipolar bit and i felt that my depression was a mixed episode and he said that he thought so too. So, he proceeds to give me samples of abilify - I started a new job so the old insurance "expired" and I don't have insurance until July - and then gives me samples of Zyprexa and says "this will put you out" and then left (I was at the front desk when he gave me the samples. So, this is what I am left with. So, I have no idea what is going on! God-Bless, I have a weird life!