Symptoms used against you by loved ones?

[rogelio63]

Does anyone else ever feel reluctant to share how you're doing with spouse/family because it seems like they use it against you?  I've told my wife that it's like I'm not allowed to feel anything.  If I mention that I'm feeling depressed then everytime I do something they don't approve of, they blame it on being BP.  I can't get angry at things that would make a "normal" person angry because if I do, I'm obviously going to far because I have BPD.  So, as a result I hold everything in, just like I always did until I blew up and ended up in the hospital for 2 weeks.  I'd like to be able to talk to my wife but I don't want to scare her.  Right now, I'm happy, almost too happy (doesn't that suck when you're afraid to enjoy yourself) and then I get sad/depressed because I feel like I'm going to really plummet and then that goes away and I'm happy again and the cycle continues ad infinitum.  I'm blathering now.  It always gets me down,,almost makes me feel guilty when I finally do say how I'm feeling,,even on here.

[MR_WHY]

Until now, nobody know that I'm diagnose with BP due to avoid any kind of stigma. Also, no one around me can understand well this kind of disease or can give me useful help.

[Bubulous]

I know how you feel about the "being afraid to enjoy yourself."  After the first couple times you start worrying about the fall so much that you can't enjoy the climb.

[Bubulous]

I know how you feel about the "being afraid to enjoy yourself."  After the first couple times you start worrying about the fall so much that you can't enjoy the climb.