I'm 29 with an 8 year old daughter and i'm finding it very hard to deal with my diagnosis at the moment as i've been feeling the same for so long. I feel that no one understands how i feel and mock me when i'm upset. It's so hard trying to explain to another person what goes through your head. I just wish someone could sit them in a room and explain to them what can happen! I feel so alone and need some support. On one side i have the mocking, then the other side they think i'm wonderful and there's nothing wrong, which there definately is. At the moment i'm very manic and feel very out of control, the doctors says i'll have to wait to see the psychiatrist which could be months, in the mean time what do i do? How do i cope if people can't understand? If i tell them how i feel, they look at me like i have two heads!!
I self harmed a few weeks back which is something i've not done for at least 10 years and that's one of the main reasons i sought help!, but feel like the urge to do it again is too much and i've tried to stop this from happening but my family, they're making me worse!!!
I just want to get better, many times i just feel like abandoning my home and just self presenting myself to the hospital, i can't deal with the way i feel and the things i do.
Anyone with any advise would be very much appreciated.
Thankyou JoJo xXx