What is it?

For as far as i remember i was always worried about my social life, about the friends i have, and social problems, who talked to me in a bad way, how to fix things?. It was bad when i was young, however in 2003 i traveled to camp alone and it good quiet better afterwards, i became more confident, however i still used to think about my  social problems and some anxiety times. However 2 years ago things began to deteriorate again, i lost some friends because of my anxiety, and i was anxious most of the time, and worried about how people look at me? and if people like me or not? It started to affect me even with my family and how i am comfortable with them. For the last year i had some sleeping problems, besides to the way i think about social problems on a daily basis. Moreover 7 months ago i developed this strange tension headache, i lost concentration and i forget a lot, i couldn't fall into deep sleep, now i am trying to relax the headache is better, but i can feel it its still there from the moment i wake till i fall asleep, and i also still think about my social problems and still can't sleep well. I have researched Social Anxiety disorder, but i dont feel i have it as i am not shy or have a big problem talking in a room full of people, and i am a sociable person and have friends, but on a daily basis i evaluate any social encounter what happened? and how i look? which is exhausting me and destroying my relations with people. I am now looking at bipolar disorder, but not sure if that is it, as i sometimes do have mood swings which i try to control whether up or down.
I know something is wrong with the way i think, but need help fixing it, as apparently i cant do it on my own.

[looloo141]

Hi :)
From what you have said above I don't think its Bipolar, but that could be because you have not gone into detail..
It seems as though you analyse absolutely everything, I do this myself and I know how exhausting it is! I have done it all my life, people say to me all the time that I over analyse but to me its normal, its as though everyone does it..but now I'm a bit older I can see that what I'm doing is such a waste of time and energy! I am so jealous of people that are laid back..people that don't notice everything! Or see, hear, taste and touch emotions all the time! I do have bipolar but I think its either a symptom or a cause of mental instability.
my nurse has recognised that this self analysis is making me ill so she has referred me for cognitive behavioural therapy and pyschotherapy.
Maybe this is what you need?
You should see a doctor and talk things through, but sometimes its changing the way we think that needs changing.. hard I know, that's why a good therapist could be what you need.
I hope you get the help you need!
Hugs

[anameen1]

Thanks,
I know its in the way i think, but also the mood swings is what made me think it might be bipolar.
Now i am finding very hard time to sleep, worrying about everything!

[lindahand]

Check out Generalized Anxiety Disoder. Whatever the name it is pretty clear you have an anxiety disorder from what you've described. I don't know if you have a public or private systems in Egypt or if you have the money to see someone, but if you can get into see a psychiatrist it may be helpful for you. At least talk to your family doctor about it. As well seeing a therapist (talk doc) can really help with anxiety.

From what you've described I wouldn't think it is bipolar although without knowing your full history it would be hard to tell. For bipolar you have to experience depression and either hypomania (times when you are extra social, talk a bit faster, sleep less, have lots of energy) or mania - and you'd know if you've experience mania.

[normalwannabe]

I was told by my doctor, who is a bipolar specialist......that bipolar depression doesn't exhibit the highs that the typical person thinks is associated with bipolar.

[lindahand]

What you describe sounds like an anxiety disorder. Unless you have 'episodes' where there is a depression (feel like crap, want to die) and hypomania (I feel extra specially good beautiful and wonderful) or mania (haven't been manic so can't really say about this one - you'd have mentioned it though if you had been. Its stuff like thinking you are famous) you don't have bipolar. A constant feeling like what you describe is an anxiety disorder, perhaps Generalized Anxiety Disorder. And remember that you just have to fit most of the symptoms not all of them.

I would go and see a psychiatrist as they are the best doctors to help you figure out what this is and how to handle it.

[anameen1]

Thanks, well i just came back from a community service project, i had the anxiety for the 3 weeks of the project and couldnt feel comfortable, but when i cam back i felt normal for  days and i was really happy that i am not thinking and worrying about everything, but i was worried i go back to were i was which kind of started happening.
I think ill c someone.. am tiered of this! wanna concentrate on my life rather than this..