Whats wrong with me :(

[inmajortrouble]

ok here a lil somthing about me
im 17, female, moved to usa from england over a year ago, been dating my bf for 2 years and 4 months and his seen me change, i get mad easly, i always think too hard about things, i always get thoughts running throught my head (for example my bf went to the bathroom in a resturant and i thought oh no what if he drags a girl in a makes out with her) when i know KNOW he wouldnt do such a thing, i dont like to see pretty girls, i get jeliolus easly, my mood changes like a rollercoaster 1 minute i will be happy and smilin next minute i will be crying and wouldnt know why, also when i get in a bad mood i find it very hard to get out of it and when i am in a real bad mood i attack and not realize what im doing untill iv calmed down abit, my bf thinks im bipolar but i dont know, help me plz what do you thinks wrong with me ? i also find it is getting worst HELP

[darcar]

the rapid moodswings sound more like borderline personality disorder than bi polar.
alot of what you describe sounds like borderline personality disorder.
yes, see a professional to help you...
why keep suffering and hurting yourself and loved ones.
there are treatments to help you..

[inmajortrouble]

ok soo i just said to my dad, i might have borderline disorder and he said no all you have is what every 17 year old girl has and you will have it till your 30, my parents think that its just my period but if it is i dont like it and i want to be happy

[Teashop]

I am 17 as well. I have been diagnosed with being bi polar. It scared me alot. It's nice to hear someone who goes through the same thoughts as I do. My boyfriend and I have been dating for 8 months and I am a jealous FREAK! I worry about his past and what their relationships were like. I think he is being sneaky behind my back even though he is an amazingly honest guy. I feel like I have no control over my moods and when I cry and get upset, it takes me a very long time to get out of it. Plus, we are messed up teenagers as it is. I think being a young girl with bi polar is the most difficult thing ever. Just go get it checked out. And I'm here to talk to. = ]

[notsurewhy]

Hi, I am 37 and I have been like you since I was about 12 or 13. I am only now trying to sort myself out. I have been a big drinker through the years a lot to do with my highs, wanting to party which has made my agression and depression worse. I am fine one minute and like a snap of the fingers I change into the most abusive person with blackouts on alcohol and when I am not drinking I know I should stop my rage but I can't. I have lost a lot of friends over the years as well as kept the ones I will have forever because they stand by you through thick and thin. The emotions you are going through with jealousy, fear of what could happen and the anger are all what ended my relationship of 14 years. He wouldn't let me out for fear of what I would do on the grog. I have 2 kids with him and after being to the drs, a counciller, accepting my mood swings and actually talking to my ex we have a great friendship back. I am still organising my medication, only with antidepresants at the moment but I will be trying other meds. I have gone through the single and run a muck stage and have been going from crying to shopping intensly over the last month. Please don't wait as long as me to get help as I have had a path of absolute highs but also a path of total destruction.

[notsurewhy]

do you know the tests that they do?

[inmajortrouble]

no, my mom sed oooh its just pms soo shes gonna try me on evening primrose oil. does it work??

[notsurewhy]

I have a feeling that you already know what is wrong and you can go to the doctor on you own now. Mothers don't always want to acept that something is wrong with their child so they turn a blind eye to it. You know if I had of thought the way you do at your age I think I would have got help a long time ago. I just thought I was having fun when things were high and when things were low I would lock myself away from the world until I became good again which could be months. Turning to alcohol and drugs won't fix it either they just make the stunts that you pull even worse. Take it from me I still go on rage attacks at my ex thinking he is lying to me and secretly going places and seeing women who he works with etc. It isn't worth taking any longer sweety believe me. When the violence sets in and you can't control it especially if it's to do with jealousy it can become a very uncontrolable situation.