Why do I feel like its me vs. the world?

[tweekie]

Am I just being egocentric, or does this happen to some of you. Where you think you have outgrown clicks and groups  and not fitting in and it just happens in adult life. Why am i the one who gets **** on? I go above and beyond to help my coworkers and they turn it against me. What am I doing wrong. I just expect some reciprocation and its not there. The other night, we were all so busy, everyone decided to order food, did they ask me? No. And I was really hungry and overworked. And I helped those who needed it. But nobody ******* recognizes that. And it makes me livid. Why I do end up like this no matter what situation I'm in. Why am I the one who gets blamed for everything, but the one everyone goes to when they need help or have questions. I'm sick of getting **** all over. Can anyone help me?

[BPD_ADD_and_then_some]

Well if you give too much and receive too little in return then you are doing yourself a disservice. There can be a number of reasons you get **** on by your coworkers. Could be looks, or the sound of your voice, or the way you carry yourself, maybe you smell bad or dress poorly, maybe a coworker started a rumor about you, or maybe you ***** around and they all know it. If you act like you are better than they are or maybe they smoke and do drugs and you don't. Become good at something and say **** the world! Give your kindness to people who deserve it: friends, family members, animals, nature, kids, old people. If people don't reciprocate your attempts to treat  them with kindness then ignore those people and only spend time with the people who treat you the way you want to be treated.

[paranoid_cataclysm]

I go through the same thing.  It certainly doesn't help my paranoia where I'm always expecting bad sh*t to happen or people to turn against me or stab my back all the time.  I think it's the people you're around who are to blame because it seems like there's a lot more sh*tty people out there than there are nice people.  You just gotta find the groups of nice people like here, the people here are nice.

[Xila31]

I feel this way, too. A lot of times I feel like people only point out when you do something wrong and then say nothing when you do something right. It makes it hard with my mood, you know, because I start to get so angry at people. I do make a lot of mistakes, that is true, especially recently since I'm having such a rough time. But that doesn't mean I do everything wrong. Yet it is rare to hear "hey, good job on that."

The other day a co-worker gave me a "good work" certificate for how good I am with the patients and I started crying. Just because recently I feel completely attacked all the time at work, so it was just so strange that someone noticed something good.

[ILADVOCATE]

I still experience that because of my physical disability and I certainly experienced that before recovery. When I was in high school I had no friends and when I was in college I did have friends but there were many cliques. After that I continued with having friends but many of them left me because they wanted to symptomatize my physical disability as mental. People can be ignorant and disability discriminatory. That said before recovery I did some feelings of paranoia and grandiosity that I was better than other people and people did notice that. It depends on whether your feelings match up with reality and if they do this can happen. What I've done over the years was to try to educate people out of this ideology but its hard for them to learn.