Amazing how similar this is to what I am dealing with on an average daily. I am on lamictal and buspar too, I deal with forgetting bills to pay, I even forgot an appointment for my mammogram, and yes I do try to write it down but most of the time I'm alive I am feeling overwhelmed then my job has contributed to more debilitation and I have nobody to help me, I am alone in this and I'm tired of trying. I think what improvements am I gaining even with taking the lamictal now for months, I see no future for me, only emptiness.
thank you so much for your response
thank you so much for your response
It sounds like we are on the same page. Have you read my post called mail causes severe anxiety? It's hard to leave the house most days, I'm always being reminded by my kids the things I forget to do...... yada yada yada.
The only thing that makes me feel better is taking a step in the right direction, meaning give your doc a call and let the nurse know what is going on. She will give the doc your message and get back to you with the doc's response. It will be quicker to call than waiting for an appointment, but maybe another visit is needed.
I was lost in an ocean of tears and depression for several years... it was a dark time for me... I'll never forget it. But now I'm in a good place thanks to the right meds.
One more thing. Is your prescribing doc right for you? It sounds like you are beyond frustrated. When I switched psy docs my new guy was receptive to new meds for me and I got relief finally pretty quick. The new doc couldn't believe I had gone so long in such deep depression (I. Stayed in bed for 6 weeks once). I felt like my old doc was not understanding my level of distress and how deparate I felt... but the new guy saw it right away.
Don't stop looking for relief now... you've come too far. And no jumping out of windows... including those on the ground floor :)
M
Is come to the point where even payin a bill is becoming difficult for me I go out write the money order then just leave it there then come back to get it or forget to close my purse and everything felt in the middle of the street turning off the stove after cookin I just cant keep living like this and sick of trying. I've lost count of all the meds I've been on and when my doctors says "well maybe we should change it" or "this one will work better" I JUST WANT TO JUMP OUT OF A WINDOW!!!!! the is only so much a person can take!!!
Hi China doll,
I understand you when you say you're tired of trying different meds. I went through 13 different meds over 4 years until I finally found the right combo of meds for me. Hang in there it's worth the effort.
My daughter takes Topamax for Tourette's and hasn't had any problems, but that could be bc she takes a pediatric dosing. I don't know.
Keep posting here. We are all here for you and so many others have similar stories. It REALLY helps to talk with others going through similar experiences.
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The cognitive difficulties are most likely the Topamax. It's known for giving some people a major case of the stupids. Write down your difficulties and contact your doctor about them. See if you can email or fax them a copy to make sure you don't forget to bring it, or put it in your purse well before the appointment. Depending on your dose, the buspirone could be contributing to the effects as well, but the Topamax is probably the main offender.
Do not try to stop it yourself. Suddenly stopping seizure meds can cause withdrawal seizures, even if you didn't have a seizure disorder to begin with (and Topamax is a seizure drug).