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[frustrating4me]

I have rapid cycling bipolar. Is it normal to have obsessive thoughts on one things for weeks??

[Bubulous]

I hope your therapist can ease your mind a little.  If you do have HIV there is nothing you can do about it now but I know you already know that.  There are medicines that can help you lead a normal life if that is what you want but it will take some more trial and error.

[frustrating4me]

I go into cycles where i think i have HIV. im not sick. I have no symptoms. Its cause  for years i was a hooker and a junkie and an alcoholic.  Ive been sober almost 9 months been tested for HIV twice and had negative results. Im in therapy. I dont take the medicine cause it makes me feel weird and i have really bad anxiety attacks and panic attacks daily on meds. Ive tried a few of the medicine s and ended up in hospital once cause i couldnt eat and slept for 4days. Im getting tested again Thursday for Hiv. Im scard to death. My mind wont stop racing. I can barely eat now. I know im doing it to my self. I just want it to stop. Good thing is i have therapy tomorrow and my therapist is GREAT.

[Bubulous]

Yes it is common.  What are your thoughts if you don't mind talking about them?  It has been a while since I have cycled but it can be very disturbing.