lost memories/confusion

It's began, thee 1st of my friends has came around. Not just outright but thru a friend. That would be awesome IF I knew what had happened while I was in the hospital with that surgery & off meds. I'm starting to realize that I must have been slowly crashing the week before I had the surgery/infection.  As things began to be fuzzy then, erractic thoughts, scattered dreams. While in the hospital I had dreams of rain, floods, drowning, people's voices, roooms being blocked. Then, back with my meds MINUS that morophine,  (thank God), I began to see reality again. Then began apologizing. BUT, I still wonder about 1 group of events/friends. That is the group I am talking about. I don't want to say, "hey, did this happen", if it didn't, but, I question events???
Anyone know how to pursue this without appearing stupid?
Also, can you be allergic to Morophine? I think that was the whole trigger, that & being off meds....

[monkeyc]

My best advice is do not care about appearing stupid - talk to them honestly, tell them what was happening and what it did to you and explain to them how you felt - if they are real friends then it won't matter and if not. Well..  

Allergic to morphine?  Yes indeed, I have a medicalert bracelet on my arm that is my constant companion and it never leaves my wrist but allergy to morphine does not tend to cause what happens to you - it causes a lot of people to start having a problem breathing (this is what happens to me) for one thing.

I suspect that happened to you is similar to what has happened to me though not as severe - When my diverticulitis became acute and I got infected I went manic, not as bad as you did however but manic enough looking back (I was not diagnosed at that point) and then after I had the surgery for my resection and was on fentanyl I again became manic and delusional and dissasociated.

As i think I said in another post I spoke to my psych and he told me that its not uncommon for many pain meds to cause that - morphine in particular as its an opiate (there's not a really huge difference between heroin and morphine ultimately) and that has an effect on the mind.  Heroin is certainly not on the list of reccomended drugs for bipolar patients ...

Apparently some studies have shown mania induced by morphine and its common in cats also - the reality is what you had sounds like a severe delusional event and its not uncommon on opiates - I can really only use synthetics now like Pethedine which dont affect me as badly.