obsessing whats this mean??

[jimgreg]

what  is this???  and what does it mean to do it???  what meds will help hit?? or is it a part of bp??  thanks james

[jst4shanell]

Meds help.  It is a huge part of BP.  I obsess over things like, what people say to me, my friends, family, complete strangers and how they treat me, men I like, what I eat is a huge one just to name a few.  Obsessing for me is very self destructive.  I will say something one minute, obsess about it until it all becomes very distorted and I will feel completely different, and it's usually not good.  I am also trying to figure this one out.  I am very affected by it.  It's one of the things that really effects my day to day life.  I have lost friends over it.  My boyfriend is confused a lot by the things I say because I always contradict myself.  It's a tough one.  My medications help but it has become an obsession in itself LOL.  It's funny to even say that but it's true.  I have a psychologist who I talk to but it still hasn't helped.

[lagatta]

I think most people with BP are obsessive/compulsive.  For me when I get depressed I get very negative thoughts that keep repeating themselves.  I can't seem to stop them from whirling in my head.  Meds are helping with this.  

I'm also compulsive about things I do.  I can be an absolute perfectionist.. I try to catch myself when I do this and then back down.  I tell myself that's it o.k. not be perfect and to just do an 80% job.  It's hard though..  There can also be a lack of moderation. i.e – if I’m eating chips I have to finish the bag.  If I’m on a fitness kick then I often overdo it.  I’m working really hard at moderating my behaviour and again since I’ve been on meds and have more of a routine things have been a lot better.

[bernie40]

I relate to everything the other two have said.  I have found that my meds have helped a lot though as my obsessiveness is only apparent when I am at either one of the extreme ends of the mood spectrum.  When I am stable they seem to disappear.  When I start to get obsessive this is usually a sign that I am about to go up or down.  So for me it is an indicator.