BPD "beautiful person disorder"

Those of us who struggle with this disorder are:
deep
sensitive
loving
creative
emotional
thoughtful
intelligent
charming
engaging
interesting
We struggle because we don't know how to regulate our emotions.
We are often times overwhelmed by our emotions.
We have a lot of shame, sadness, and guilt, and we don't know why.
We spend more time being angry with ourselves then we do anyone else.
The slightest hint of criticism or a disapproving look can pierce us like a sharp knife.

Also i don't know about you guys but a lot of times i feel like there is a void inside of me. I feel empty and lost.
But today is a knew day 11-11-11.
I say we make this day a great day.
BPD help day. We all help each other.
since therapists are always too busy, doctors don't know how to help, and we all have ourselves.
We are beautiful people just like everyone else, we are just different, and i find that beautiful. We should stand strong, and not let the stigma get the best of us. And not be suicidal because there are young girls and boys that may struggle with the same thing and look up to us because we are here and still standing strong and because we can help the best we can. Would you want them to look up to us, and say well she had bpd and she committed suicide so i probably will too? NOOOOO.
Make a stand for yourself and for all of us who have this disorder, and feel happy about yourself, and love yourself. And always remember that this illness does not define you , and you can always make it better, and your life better. Be strong healthy and happy. And everyone have an amazing day. Because we are capable of anything after all we've fought through.
xoxo manda

[Coach_Ted]

Manda,
This is a beautiful piece.  Thank you.
Coach Ted

[mandapanda928]

Your welcome , and Thank you. I hope it inspires some.

[Beanie0]

Bang on!  I'm almost in tears, what you have said here has touched my soul.  It has to be another THANK YOU.  Beanie0

[Ellenses]

Thankyou so so much for this, its so nice to find someone else who uses the sensitivity and emotion of BPD and uses them in such a beautiful way. I have never met anyone else with BPD, and I do find that so hard. and on forums all I have ever seen is people refusing to believe they have it and saying they dont want a label. well, my lifes been hard and having bpd is like being a different species, but its good to be different right? as long as you have a good loving heart. so thankyou, and love to you, because,above everything, you share something with me that not many people could understand xx

[mandapanda928]

Glad that it had an impact on everyone I know how hard every day is, and how much of a struggle life is with this disorder, but I'm glad that all of you that have read this have fought and you all are still here fighting is a great accomplishment. I'm glad that it helped you guys. xoxo

[alinna227]

i just signed up fr this forum and i suffer bpd its getting worst and idk what to do.... =[ you words made me smile because its hard to tell who suffers from bpd and you are the first i read and you just about a lot of things and it touched me.

thanks <3

[mandapanda928]

your welcome <3 glad that it helped you. If you ever need someone to talk to you can talk to me. xoxomanda

[jedi77]

Hi, nice expansion for BPD! I've been under the impression that ppl with BPD don't normally accept it. But there are so many out here, who contradicts that notion? What am I missing here?

[let_the_sunshine_in]

Beautiful words, touched my heart too, thank you.

[mandapanda928]

Well a lot of it is because of the stigma of this disorder people will THINK that we are crazy which is completely false. And it is a more unknown mental disorder as apposed to bipolar which is a well known diagnosis people know what it is. BPD is often misunderstood, so a lot of people are scared of getting looked at differently by loved ones or anyone, so a lot of people keep it hidden which often times makes it worse. Now in order for us to end the stigma it would be best that we were all truly honest about it and to decide to stop caring what others think of us because we are beautiful people.

[let_the_sunshine_in]

Yes I agree, theat we're very loving, sensitive and genuinely caring people. We feel things and care very deeply. And this make us all the more vulnerable to feeling pain when we hurt others with misguided thinking and way of seeing the world. This is from my experience and I see others saying this and I know that I am not alone.

[mandapanda928]

Yes sometimes it is very painful for us to feel something even small that normally wouldn't bother other people but we can make that into one of our biggest strengths i think. We care a lot and have a lot of empathy.

[dalesgirl80]

That was so refreshing to read.... The first initial post and all the others who commented after that. The thing I'm learning about BPD is those who have it need to stick together and support each other as much as possible. This is a terrible illness that had the most horrible sigma attached to it. It is so painful to fight and yet we must. Just when I'm feeling like no one could possibly understand.... I read this! I don't wish this in anyone but it feels good knowing I'm not alone.....

[eels83]

Thank you so much for posting that. I have BPD and been feeling really **** about myself and life, but this helps me feel that I am not alone and that I CAN get through this!!! xxxx

[tomforreal]

Wow! Well said! Nice to hear and nice to know you are out there. Therapeutic and very inspiring. Would love to talk to you sometime. Thank you.

[greyMatta]

I've just joined tonight and I'm so glad I did!! I love what you've written, I totally identify with it and it's so good to read all the other comments by other people who identify with it too! It's so easy to feel lonely and freakish when you're BPD but I've found others like me :-)

Thanks so much!!

[mandapanda928]

Anytime anyone needs someone to talk to I'm here. Everyone with this disorder should help eachother that is one way to help is to help eachother through it.

[jones21498]

Amazing!