Help Me!

[jfizz211]

Is there a treatment for me?  about a month ago i took something called zyprexa.  it was given to me but i shouldve never taken it.  it was not for me at all. the next day at school i was still feeling weird from the pill.  i did not want to even be at school because i did not feel like myself and i was suspecting something awful was going to happen.  it did and now, im worse that ever.  what happened was me and some friends skipped lunch to go smoke some marijuana.  after smoking the marijuana i began to feel very very weird and i insisted on noone seeing me at lunch.  i knew somethin was wrong and i was just waiting for pple to notice it.  i didnt speak all class period and my classmated were all like jeffrey whats wrong why arent u talking.  i could barely talk or interact with anyone.  i felt dumb and slow and my brain felt very awkward.  like it wasnt working right and it sort of hurt.  its been a month since ive done this and i believe i am getting worse day by day.  i am experiencing very weird feelings and emotions. at times i feel like my self for only a little while but still feel somewhat slow when i am myself the rest of the day is just horrible.  after feeling like myself i just crash and go in that same bad place where i feel dumb slow and cannot interact so i isolate myself so noone can see me this way.  other times during the day i do not even feel like myself i feel and act like someone totally different, but still feeling slow and aggravated i push on not knowing what else to do.  at other times this is the worst, i feel not my age my head is the age of a younger me and my body is still the same
i think young thoughts and act as if i was younger.  i cannot control this at all at it scares me to death what can i do to heal my brain please someone help me with the right medicine please i have tried abilify...not for me.  i need a medicince thats going to get me back to me which i loved being.  if i could take that day back id do it for a million dollars. please doctors or some JUST PLEASE HELP ME i cant live like this any longer. id rather die than live the rest of my life this way its awful....HELP

[Amphitrite]

It sounds like you are in a really bad place right now and that the anxiety of what the medication is doing, or not doing is making it all worse.
The first thing I want you to know is that you should never use any drugs unless they are prescribed by a doctor who knows what medications you are on at the time. Of course you know that and are regretting the smoking so I won't lecture you. But just know that the effects you had were a mixture of the two which effected the way you were thinking, feeling and processing information in a negative way because marijuana and prescribed medications aren't ment to be taken together.
The good news is that if you haven't smoked since that day then ot would be unlikely that the one incident has been what is affecting you to this point because the marijuana has worn off and is working it's way out of your system.
Marijuana takes a good amount of time for your body to be clear of it because it is stored in fat cells.

There is however a chance that any drug done even used once can cause a long term or permenant effect in someone physically, emotionally or mentally.Especially illicit drugs mixed with prescription drugs. But as I said the chances of this are more unlikely than a strong probability.

Still you need to be very upfront and honest with your doctor and therapist if you have one right now because they can;t help you unless they know exactly what is going on in your life.

All prescription medications have side effects. Some more troublesome and severe than others. But medications, especially ones used to treat psychiatric dissabilities take time to work and adjust to. Sometimes not getting the full effect of the medication for up to a month. The side effects can also last for weeks or even a month depending on how your body adjusts. And then when the dose is raised your body will again need to adjust but usually a little more easilty than when the drug was first taken. Everyone reacts to medications differently and soemone may have one side effect while the other person experiences something else.

But as I mentioned it's important for you to tell your doctor exactly what you are experiencing so he/she can decide if the medication is right for you or you need to be switched. Even of your dose needs to be adjusted.
Just be completely honest. Especially about the smoking because next time the medication your on could have a life threatning reaction which you weren't aware about.

Good luck and be well. I'm sorry I couldn't pinpoint any medications for you because only your doctor will know what is right for you.

Amph