I'm 13.What is wrong with me?

In short:
Smoked weed with a couple of friends,repeated 3-4 times,got depersonalization and anhedonia 4th time,went to doctor,he said he won't tell my parents,he sent me to a psychiatrist,seeing him in a couple of weeks.

I want to know what's wrong with me.Here's a list of symptoms:
-Anhedonia
-Depersonalization
-Emotionless
-Time goes by fast
-Bad memory
-Almost no concentration
....

Before this I was a fun guy.I enjoyed nature and everything.Now life is boring.
When I smoked weed I started getting real depersonalized(I didn't know it back then).I was feeling awful.I first started laughing then I started to feel real sad.I asked my friend why I was feeling sad but he didn't reply.Now when I got worse and worse he started making fun of me.He thought I was high and I was joking around.He started saying how he's a bird and how he's gonna jump of a cliff or something.I gathered up the strength and stood up holding him.I didn't think so everything I heard was real to me.After that he started saying how I'm in a coma and that we're in the future or some crap.That experience traumatized me.Especially because of my friend.

Well,I was feeling ok a couple of days ago.I didn't feel emotions,still felt depersonalized but there was a balance.A couple of days ago I was going to the bakery with the same friend that I smoked weed with.He started talking and I suddenly started feeling 100% depersonalized again.I don't know what caused this.It just happened.My balance was ruined.We went to the bakery every day on recess but it was the first time that happened.

Now every time I talk with him alone I start feeling as bad as I did before.

Why did this happen?
Will I recover?
Will the psychiatrist tell my parents that I smoked weed?
What's wrong with me?

P.S.I'm 13.From Croatia,Europe.

[ellieishgirl]

most of what your feeling sounds like guilt, if you have understanding parents you might want to tell them about it. listen, im only 17 but when I was 13 though i didnt really do anything bad i went through this rough spot where it seemed like the whole world went blank. I'm not sure I can say for sure that nothings wrong. but You can get through it. the old you will come back, or and even better you. hang in there kid :)

[Jaquta]

This happened because you smoked weed.  One would expect you to get better although not everyone does.  Some people go on to develop schizophrenia after taking drugs.  What you had could be a drug induced psychosis.
Not sure what the doctor will do.  Usually they don't break confidentiality unless you are a danger to yourself or others.  (If you feel out of it sometimes you could put yourself at risk??)  I'm not sure what the criteria are for dealing with people your age.  In my country your parents would likely be informed.  I don't know what your doctor will do though.

These could be symptoms of anxiety or depression (or drug induced psychosis).
They are most likely due to your drug use.  You should never do that again by the way.  You may do more damage if you do.

I would also suggest you ask to speak to a psychotherapist about how traumatizing this has been for you.  Could just be anxiety regarding the stuff with your friend.

Good luck for your doctor's appointment.