Nervous Breakdown?

[ggma128]

The problem is that no matter how hard and how many hours I work my boss wants more and more and more from me.  After 13 years I finally said I could do no more and his answer was to give me 5 more hours work a day that he transferred from another department.  If I do what he wants done I will work 12-16 hour days and get no time at home. Oh of course there is no overtime paid.  

My husband wants me to keep the job for the money.  Is the money worth more than me????  He wants me to get out of the house and socialize.  I do not want to see anyone or talk to anyone.  I want to hybernate.  

I have shut down, crying all the time, nightmares, not sleeping and no one to talk to that would understand.  I am lost.   I do not think I am stupid I am just worn out from all the stress.  

So what am I gonna do?  I read all the internet self help sites and they say do something positive so I am looking for another job thinking this guy will fire me anytime now.   I am going to Walmart and paying a couple of bucks and will dye my hair.  Put on some makeup and see if that helps even if it is just for a few minutes.  Anything is better than sitting here crying.  

I just started looking for a new job 2 days ago.  Nothing in the newspaper at all so I went to career builder.com and monster.com and they gave me some good leads.  I applied for some of them.  The only thing I know is that I have to feel better or no one will hire me.  

So I'm gonna take some of the baby steps I found on the internet.  I have to get better, I have children, grandchildren and a great grand daughter on the way.  I absolutely must get back on track.  My problem right now is that I feel there is a freight train on the track and it is heading my way.  

I did not know I had that much to say but somehow if feels good to write it down.

[Bliarg]

Hello,

Yeah, you need another job if you're that stressed and your boss isn't listening...or paying you overtime.  Great that you have leads etc.  It's just a matter of time.  

Is the hair dye a big dparture from your current colour?!  Just, now might not be the best time to make a decision regarding a huge change in your appearance!  Otherwise, enjoy the pampering - and how about taking it further?  Get some nice bath salts, face masks and moisturiser, give yourself a top to tails pampering session :-)  talk your boyf into giving you a massage maybe...?

If you can, once you've found another job, maybe take a week or so off after you leave your current job and start the new one.  I've had to do that before, and it really helps.  


Yay, you're moving away from this bad situation...and venting the stress...so, you'll be fine :-)

[ILADVOCATE]

You are entitled to your rights at the workplace as a person with a disability under the Americans with Disabilities Act including seeking reasonable accomodations. You could find out more about this as well as available resources for people with disabilities to find employment at your local independent living center:
http://www.ilru.org/html/publications/directory/index.html

[jimgreg]

thats wayyyy to much on you...you need to find other work...16 hrs aday  i havent worked  that since i was in my 30,s..i didnt think there was  jobs left  that worked  that much...anyways..i cant tell you what to do or not to do..but if ur boss needs you this much..then you must be doing something right..try another place..you know you cant keep  working this manny hrs you will fall  hard   great luck to you  james