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Hi,
im a new member to this site! I was diagnosed with ADD when i was about 10 years old. I always had a lingering feeling that these med made me a little messed up i the head. For example, I would get very happy for a while then very sad, i would act on almost every impulse and i would spiral into these awful fits of anger were i wouldnt be able to control myself.But about a year ago i started weening myself off these pills and im happy to say i am know 18 years old and no longer take them. But for some reason all th thing that ihought were side effects are still occuring. I still have these crazy mood swings. I also have no true regard for others and how my actions may affect them unless its directly related back to me. Sometimes i will have this feeling of supiriority to everyone around me then suddenly i will feel like im the scum of the earth, There are lots of things different from when i was taking the pills but the one of the key things was my sexual desires. I think the medicine repressed my sexual impulses but now i act upon them as a way to reasure myself  that i was pretty,,,i think i may have borderline personality disorder. I looked it up online and im worried i may have it. Can someone help my figure this out? anyone who has it could just talk to me and tell me if they had these feelings too???

[ILADVOCATE]

You may have bpd with aspects of bipolar but only a psychiatrist would know for sure. Medications for ADHD as they are stimulants can sometimes worsen moodswings in people with bipolar but not permanently if they have been discontinued. They may have triggered moodswings but if you had the potential for bipolar it would have happenned anyway. Speak to a psychiatrist about all this.

[dalesgirl80]

Its been almost a year since you posted that, but I still wanted to answer you. I do in fact have BPD and thought I should bring you a little information- First of all, I agree with what the last person said in their reply to you- Only a health care professional can diagnose you, so please see a doctor and do not just go off of what I say. That being said, I believe you may have some of the signs and symptoms of BPD. One thing in particular that you brought up was the fact that you were diagnosed and treated for ADD. This is commonly associated with BPD. Feeling the things you have described also points in that direction as well. I would love to suggest to you to pick up the books, "I hate you, don't leave me!" and/or "Sometimes I act crazy!" Both are written by Jerold J. Kreisman, M.D. and Hal Straus. The first time I picked up the "I hate you, don't leave me!" book 6 years ago, I bursted out in tears of relief! I felt like finally someone was explaining the things I couldn't really ever make sense of that was going on in my head. Like, I finally felt like I wasn't completely helpless and there was a real name to what I was going through. Unfortunately, this was misdiagnosed in me for so many years. They chalked it up to Chronically Depressed in my early teens, then changed it to BiPolar in my early twenties. None of the meds or therapy was helping and I felt like it was a lost cause. Finally when confronting doctors and shining a light on the possibility I was misdiagnosed, it turned out that this fit better and now my meds (which are considerably less meds than before) and my therapy is helping me get through life's challenges. And of course the struggles I deal with every minute of every day in my head. Looking further into this might be right for you. And who knows, you could read these books and realize that it doesn't fit- Either way you would know more about it and be able to make a decision to bring it up on your next doctors visit. Hope this info helps!