does anybody knows about narcissic closet pd

i feel more into borderline syndrome than narcissic personnality disorder. thats why they call my pathology closet narcissic but i have a hard time to understand what it is. Those anybody knows something about it? cause i am sure not into any superiority power trip but i style feel really conserne buy what i look like.

i have so much difficulties of feeling happiness and satisfaction. But i got hopes, i just feel very lonely with that problem. And i have weird stuff like placing same colors together. cutting my hair all the time. feeling bored and depress in any of my works.

thanks for sharing

[tori7890]

Hi, I have a friend who is a narcissist and I recently looked up information on the subject after an extremely traumatizing experience she put me through, I thought this message was very helpful on what a closet narcissist is. Just as an opinion though from what you have written you dont seem like a narcissist, my friend takes pride in hurting people including me and getting as much attention as possible in some really horrible ways.
(If your like me its a bit confusing so you may have to look some words up)
"The closet narcissist does not feel that he (she) can express grandiosity and self-centeredness directly and openly as the brash, exhibitionistic narcissist does so well. The closet narcissist has the same intrapsychic structure (a grandiose self-image fused with an omnipotent parent-image) as the exhibitionist but the major emotional investment is not in the grandiose self but in the omnipotent other. Therefore this patient does not seek the mirroring of (her) grandiose self; rather he (she) idealizes the other and hopes to receive their admiration, or simply "basks in the other's glow."
Heres the entire message/support group,
http://groups.msn.com/NarcissismSupportGroupMoralandSpiritualStruggle/noteworthyposts.msnw

[ILADVOCATE]

Let me distinguish between bordeline personality disorder and narcissistic personality disorder. And better to use the term person with npd or person with bpd. Anyone can be a narcissist. In borderline personality disorder a person's emotional life depends on other people. I know someone with this disability, an ex-girlfriend in fact, and she will jump from a boyfriend "being the best thing in her life" to "he always hated her and put her down" and this could be part of a relationship but it happens every time. Over and over. Including two decades ago when I dated her. And in e-mail exchanges from the past before she took Abilify I went from being a "loser" to a "hero" and back again not depending on what I did but on her emotional state. Co-dependency is ever a problem with this disability and self destructive behaviors (cutting, promiscuity, drug and alcohol use) as well. Its different from bipolar but extreme moodswings are involved and both can occur at the same time. The best treatments they have found so far are Lamictal and Abilify. Before that it was deemed untreatable. Unfortunately, as its less common than schizoaffective disorder, the experimental antipsychotics such as glycine, a glutamate antagonist in Phase II FDA study which I am on have not been used in clinical studies for bpd but medications that are antipsychotics (Abilify) or have an antipsychotic aspect (Lamictal) are generally warranted.
   Narcissistic personality disorder has so far been deemed hard to treat but I would assume that they will find a way. What both have in common is that appear to eminate from traumatic experiences such as child abuse although clearly a genetic component is involved. I have a friend with narcisstic personality disorder. With that in extremeties a person defines the world by themselves. They divide people into two classes, those they look up to and compulsively patten themselves after and those they look down on and must look up to them. Its much rarer than bpd but does occur. Both have some elements of disturbed thinking that may have aspects of psychosis but so far npd is the harder to treat of the two.