I'm Scared

Invasive Grade 2, Moderately Differentiated Ductal Carcinoma

[MiracleB]

I understand your fear and hope I can give you some comfort in knowing that it is normal, but no fun to go alone. I am new to this site. Boy is there a lot of good information, but lots to read. I am sorry no one has written back thus far. I hope you have had someone to talk to becuase, yes, cancer is scary! Talk to your cat, if that's all who is around. It will help dimish your fears and at least make you feel better knowing someone else is listening and cats will not argue with you. (ha, ha). . It is so nice to be able to vent out your fears, concerns and questions in writing. I think it is very therapeutic, at least for me. I have a wonderful husband who has been very helpful through my ordeal and keeps me calm when I get mad as to the good ole "Why Me? syndrome i 1st went through. I will give you what I know and believe. I too was scared when a lump was found and the biopsy  came back as Grade 2, which is just a description of how the cells look, not an indication of the stage of cancer. Mine was Infiltrating Ductal Carcinoma. I can not remember the other exact details on the pathology report in regards to moderately differentiaing, etc. Initial responce was shock and tears. Then something happened. Please listen to the rest, as I am in no means pushing religion or anything, I am just letting you know what happened in my case and that there is hope from all sources!  My only explanation is a Miracle. I was in denial at first and then it turned to just believing. I had to believe, for my own peace and understanding, that no matter what it would be OK. I immediaetly began to recieve a sence of peace. God spoke to me in a small quiet voice and said, " Call this cancer OUT, by Name!" I now had a name, IDC. So, with a copy of the pathologists' report in hand, I went to a church and asked for prayer and was truling believing that If I did as god asked, that he would call it OUT of my body. I then threw the report on the ground and stomped all my anger and fear onto it!. Boy did I feel good after tha. Call it a leap of faith or what ever you want, but I had to hold on to the one thing which gave me my strength to go through this and that was GOD and his power of prayer and the hope for a miracle. I don't know whyhe chose me to perform this miracle and why more people don't get miracles, it is out of my hands and I truly pray that all people with any disease could be healed without any invasive procedures.  Gain your strength and comfort your fears by whatever means ring true in your heart. I was not going to have this Cancer in my body any longer. Then, two days later, in a different church during a prophet service, that's what they called it...I just felt led to go. I did not tell anyone that I had cancer, not even the pastor. I figured it was between me and god and I just needed time alon with my thoughts. I figured what better place, because if  god is for you who can be against you. Any way, I was praying and crying and crying and praying and out of the blue, this stranger came up to me and whispered in my ear, "Cancer dissolve and be gone" Wow!!! I was so exstatic!!! I looked up and she was gone. I knew these were words from god, through this stranger, because how else could she have know what I was going through. Right then and there I claimed this as another confirmation that I was going to be healed.  I still had the surgery to remove the lump and some lymph nodes. When the pathology came back from the lump removed, it stated, something to the affect, according to my doctor's  words on the phone, "No cancer at all!. Sure it is possible that all the cancer was removed during the biopsy, since the lump was so small to start with, but hey...I am not a doctor, so I do not have to explain things scientifically. Miracles do happen!. I am thankful for the docotrs and will continue to do as they say, because god does not want me to be stupid., but to simply know where my healing came from and that he can use doctors and strangers to perform these miracles or give you the strneght and assurance that he will see you through what ever you need.