TRAM FLAP abdominal & intestinal pain

I had a bi lateral tram flap in June 2010, so I am 4 months into a recovery that never seems to happen.  I have been referred by my PS to a Gastro. Dr. who has taken over my intestinal pain issues.  I cannot eat; when the food goes down it feels like broken glass is travelling through my intestines.  He suspects that the mesh is causing a binding of my intestines.  He will do a CT scan, and also check my gall bladder.   I am so depressed and tired of being in pain.  I would really like to hear from any of this website about their problems with digestive pain after eating and other problems with the abdominal mesh.  My Gastro. Dr. say's the mesh may have to be removed.  What then?  Will I develop hernias?  I feel like I made such a bad decision choosing the TRAM, but after having already endured 3 previous breast reconstructions because of implant ruptures, I felt this would end any further breast surgeries.  Oh, what have I done to myself?!