anxiety about result of core breast biopsy

[noac]

Four days after the biopsy the breast clinic soc.worker phoned me. I am so worried I feel I am losing my mind. I started worrying a month ago already. I have had symptoms for years, lost my mothet to bc and an aunt, and another aunt and another cousin were diagnosed three years ago,  AND I lost my best frient to bc this year.... I am an empty shell now, I didnt want to hear what they wanted to say i was summoned next tuesday. I dare not ask questions, i am in total denial. I was a relatively normal human being a while ago.. I think about it all the time. seen a therapist I've known for years, tries to help me. I am terrified of hospitals and surgeries and I see me beeing wheeled to the or and picture horrible things and my imagination goes wild. can someone relate or any professional advise me.... thank you so much.

[vermontgirlII]

Hi, how are you doing?

[boninclyde]

There is a girl on the breastcancer.org website who would love to talk to you and she is also from Israel. Just go to their discussion board look under help me get through treatment. She is there. I will get her user name and post back here. I think it would be great if you two could talk. She is young also had breast cancer I believe 1 year ago and is doing great..

[vermontgirlII]

Dear noac,

You might want to check out Richard Gerber, MD 'Vibrational Medicine'.  There is a lot of info on alternative therapies for cancer, although I have not personally checked any of them out.  Good luck, and I believe in the power of positive thought!  If you can't find a copy of this book in Israel, I can send you a copy.  Just let me know.

[suzi-q]

Whatever it is that you decide to do, I wish you the best.  Take it one day at a time and I am praying for you.  When you beat this, you will become mentally stronger!  I just know it!  Don't sell yourself short and keep fighting!!!

[boninclyde]

You don't want to share the particulars of your diagnosis and that is OK. Good luck with your treatment. Wish you well.

Happy New Year!

[noac]

Thanks for your concern. I am so distressed by the diagnosis that I dare not mention it. I am opting for alternative therapies and so far started only a strict diet but will soon do some other things. I am beyond despair and am sure my mental health is almost irreversibly damaged, but I go on living, hoping today isn't my last and looking for alternative therapies, there are a lot, i found a lot of material on the internet. Tomorrow I will get a second opinion as my boyfriend insists - the first oncol. and surgeon said 3 months chemo and then porbably a mastectomy... I will not do it.  
Wishigng you all a Happy and Healthy New Year.

[boninclyde]

Are you OK?

[vermontgirlII]

Hi,

What is your diagnosis?  What are your docs suggesting for treatment?  Please let us know, we are worried and concerned!!  Please post.

[sue-aloo]

So glad to hear from you.  What were your results exactly?  Please post them here so these fine women can help with some suggestions.  YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!  What are your doc's saying?  Let us know.  You probably do not celebrate Christmas, but even so, this is a magical time of year.  God is with you and may he bless you tenfold.  Let us know how you are doing.  We are here for you.

[noac]

I am here, was away from home, I can't stay by myself these days so I went with my boyfriend EVERYWHERE. But now he went  somewhere. I am alone and scared. I don't like the doctors suggestion for my treatment so am looking for alternatives.
Thanks for your concern.

[vermontgirlII]

Hey girl, what's up??  Please post.  I'm thinking about you.

[boninclyde]

I don't like it when people don't return to post. I know this is a busy time but I worry for them to. Hope all is well.

[suzi-q]

Where is NOAC?  I am concerned about her.  I hope she reads this and realizes that there are people who are concerned and want to know how she is doing.  So, Noac, if you are there, please let us know! Keeping you in my prayers.

[vermontgirlII]

Hey there, what's up?  Have you gotten any more information, or have you had a consultation with a surgeon yet.  Please let us know.  I had my consult with a surgeon today, it was moved up a week, thank God, and the consensus is that he will do two lumpectomies on my left breast on January 19th.  They will look at the tissue for ILC.  I am hoping this won't leave me disfigured.  The lumpectomies are in two different quadrants of my breast.  Oh well, I just want this over with...

Noac, please post....

[boninclyde]

I am sorry.

[vermontgirlII]

I am so sorry to hear about your results.  Do you have any more info?  Please keep in touch with the women here.  I will be thinking of you..

[sue-aloo]

I am sorry to hear about your results.  I truly am.  I have been checking this site all day for your response....OK. So you are in shock and depressed.  Very normal feelings, but now do what you have to do and get yourself better!  Turn to your doctors as well as people here who are going thru or have gone through what you are.  If you need to cry, then cry.  If you need to scream, then scream.  But FIGHT HARD AND STRONG!  You remain in my prayers that you will get through all of this.  Keep us posted and updated.  GOD bless.

[cyn17]

I'm sorry to hear your results were positive. Do you have any other specifics besides 'positive'? Stay strong and let us and the people in your life support you! You will get through this!!

[noac]

hi, I got a positive result... will see what happens next with the treatment... I still have to do a bone scan before the doctors will decide about treatment. The other tests I already did and they were ok. Thanks for supporting me. Of course I am in shock and depressed and so many other things...

[noac]

I am inhaling and exhaling with the vaben in my system. Tomorrow at 3 o'clock israel time I will know my fate on this earth. My eyes are filling with tears, I dread treatment, I hate the thought of chemo and surgery. I want something new and noninvasive. I regret so many things in my life, today incidentally is my birthday, I am 54. I want to disappear. I have never had such a lousy birthday. Please pray for me dear friends... I love you.

[vermontgirlII]

Happy Birthday!!!!  Here's to having a great 54th year on the planet!  You will probably be waking up on Monday when you read this, so TRY to think on the positive side.  I know it is terribly hard when your fears are this acute, and understandably so.  You WILL get through this.  I am praying for you, and I think about you often.  And it does no use to have regrets in our lives.  I'm sure you did the best that you could at the time, and with the tools you had then.  Don't beat yourself up.  It's not worth it!!  There are too many other things in life standing in line to beat us up, aren't there?  So prepare to celebrate your life, when you hear that you are going to be OK.  OK?

[cyn17]

May your 54th year be full of goodness! Do not regret the past...learn from it and move forward with the knowledge you have gained and live the best life you can. You are in my thoughts everyday and I pray that tomorrow brings you good news. Keep on breathing and know we are all here for you!!

[sue-aloo]

Happy birthday!  May this year be just the beginning of all new and good things coming your way!  Please post when you get the results.  You are not alone.  You now have friends all around the world!!!  Please try to muster up whatever strength that you have inside (which is more than you know!) and hold your head high.  I pray for all positive answers today, but also know that breast cancer is NOT a death sentence!  If, God forbid, there is bad news, you WILL fight and you WILL win!  One day a time, my friend, one day at a time....God bless and give Him your fears...He will take care of you.

[noac]

I think it's like in Uk, However I know from people that if it's cancer they tell you almost immediately... The clinic said at the beginning two weeks. with my anxious mind I was waiting from a day after the bio to hear that it is what I fear so much and so when they said no results yet, I was perplexed and am still. I hope all of you are doing well. will keep you posted. Thanks again.