How about me!

i have been the care giver to my husband for 3 years, leukemia. i ahev to small boys under the age of 5.
i feel like i do not do a thing for me.
i am in a chronic bad mood.
i am tired.
help!

[feelinglost824]

Hi!  I feel for you.  I took care of my husband for over two years, as well as his grandmother, and also helped my parents.  There were many times that I felt so alone and that I was drained.  
One thing I found was that I actually felt guilty for making time for myself!  But you HAVE to make time for yourself or you will wear down very quickly.
I found in my community respite care.  I actually qualified for the help and would have an aide come in to help so I could get out.  See if you have something like this in your community.  Also, can a friend or parent come in for an afternoon on a Saturday so that you can go and pamper yourself?  
In the evenings, when things settled down, I would go into the living room to read.  It was my time to get away from it all.
I hope this helps give you some ideas.  At least you know that someone understands.