As many of you may have read, I have not had an MRI since 2006. For Chiari specs/backstory, see thread:
http://www.medhelp.org/posts/Chiari-Malformation/How-often-to-MRI/show/1667786
*I apologize for the long posting ahead, I just need to vent and all of your support keeps me happy*
For years, Chiari was always in the back of my mind (well, every time I have a headache I think of it). My pediatric NS, and my OS both told me that MRI's at this point weren't quite necessary, as my Chiari was only 3-4mm, and there was no sign of a syrinx. My symptoms are mild, and always have been, so they figured I'd be in good shape. My parents loved this advice, since they knew I was a hypochondriac and didn't want me worrying anymore. Being only 15 years old, I loved this advice, too, so I could get back to living care free. As I grew older, though, I started to realize that there was something quite wrong with this advice. Every so often, I would hit the web and research this condition and see how others were doing, on message boards such as these. Sure enough, I'd soon forget about it and get back to life.
It wasn't until last week, on January 17th, that I started to have upper back pain. I have scoliosis, and even with it, back pain for me is quite rare. Upon feeling this stiffness in my back that persisted for a day, a wave of fear overcame my body...I immediately thought, "I have a syrinx." Regrets, self-hate, hate for my doctors, and distaste for my parents humble view on my Chiari overcame me, and I sat down with my parents (after posting here last week) to tell them that I am actually very concerned that I have not had an MRI in such a long time. Of course, they pulled the, "The doctors said you didn't need anymore!" This got me pretty upset, because I have been telling them about once a year that I wouldn't mind a round of MRIs to check up on things; even so, I always stopped caring and went back to "living life".
I can't resort to that attitude anymore. Unfortunately, last week and this week has been extremely busy for me, due to school starting up and working as many hours as I can before I start school again. This being said, I haven't had much of a chance to look for doctors on Long Island or in NYC that I can potentially make an appointment with. The entire web seems to be enveloped in links that direct to TCI; TCI is fantastic, but if I recall, it takes a long time to get an appointment, and bills can stack up quickly. Since my mother works in a medical group, I requested that she ask around, but many only seem to know pediatric NS that specialize in Chiari, which I do not want to visit anymore. The next step, I suppose, is to call my pediatric NS and see whom he recommends/can make a referral to. Why that wasn't the first thing I did, don't ask. I wish I could just walk in to BAB Radiology and say, "I need a series of MRIs". Can I do this? I was/always have been under the impression that doctors must order MRIs before a patient can be imaged. It pains me to think that, at my last appointments with my NS and OS, they both DENIED my request to have an MRI (see reasons above). Why can't they just order me them if I want them?
Anyway, my upper back pain had actually faded by mid-week last week, but all of a sudden yesterday it sprung back up again. I am lying in bed with my laptop, exhausted but sleepless, inundated with the fear that I have a syrinx hugging my spine, as my upper back continues to ache. Chiari I can live with, but having syringomyelia will open up a whole new can of worms that I am not ready to deal with, both mentally and physically. I need an MRI as soon as possible, and this waiting around, at the fault of my own, is killing me. I have work today, and I sent an email to my mother (I work/go to school in NYC with my brother, parents on Long Island) requesting that she please try on her day off (today) to give my pediatric NS a call, or assist me with researching doctors that fit our insurance and what not; I am still financially dependent on my parents for medical needs, so I like them to be in charge at this point in my life.
I'm very scared, guys...this back pain is very sudden and the fact that it is persisting deeply concerns me. I made this thread so that I can keep you guys updated as to what is going on with my Chiari. I am very glad I found this community...it makes me feel much less alone in a world of people who know absolutely nothing of this condition. I thank you for reading, and I especially thank you for your support. Thanks for letting me rant.
-Nicholas