Could I have been abused?

[Maria198610]

When I was younger I acted out in a sexual way from about the age of 4 years old to 10 years old. This would include excessive masturbation, simulating sex with other children, simulating sex with dolls and sexual contact once with my dog! I also made a false allegation of sexual abuse for seemingly no reason. I also remember being aroused by the sight of kissing and would masturbate to this when on cartoons etc...
I've been in therapy now for a few months and it has come to an end and im sure my therapist was convinced I have been sexually abused and I think she believes I have repressed the memory..I actually have no idea what to think?
My behavior now also worries me a bit as i remember from about the age of 13 years trying unconciously to seduce older adults both male and female and also i feel like i'm trying to seduce my therapist a bit too..we are both females. Basically is it possible to repress a memory? and if so how can i get myself to remember? ive become a bit obssessed with finding this out now.

[Kevin Kennedy, Ph.D.]

Yes, absolutely. However, I would suggest a different approach. There is a lot of controversy about the notion of repressed memory when it concerns possible sexual abuse. The focus of therapy can be on your current adaptation to the daily challenges you face, and in that regard you might try a therapist who utilizes cognitive behavior therapy rather than analytical therapy.

[Maria198610]

The reason I stopped therapy was basically because my therapist thought I had blocked all the stuff that had come out and I was not moving foward and dwelling on things..the type of therapy I've had is hypnoanalysis and I am also having major transference issues with my therapist..which she probably already knows without me telling her..I do really feel like I want to continue with the therapy becuase I feel it was cut short without me fully understanding where the problem actually lies. I just constantly think about it and want to get to the bottom of it. Do you think its a good idea to continue?

[Kevin Kennedy, Ph.D.]

It is possible to repress a memory. Your description indicates that you should continue in therapy. Why are you stopping now? Your behavior and emotions indicate that stopping therapy is premature and actually unwise.