voices in head and vilant behavior

[tinkscastle]

ok,ive looked every where and asked everyone. i hope some one here can help me. when i was 5 until i was 13 years old i used to wake up with screeming voices in my head telling me to hurt my mother and step father.i used to stand over my mothers bed crying and watching her sleep with a knife in my hand. the voices would tell me to hurt her of corse i never did,the voices would last for about a half hour to an hour. my mother had to put a lock on my door at night.when the voices were starting to leave my head every night i would have a horrible migraine after words. it was like i didnt have any control over my thaughts. well im 25 years old now and wasnt having that problem since then until last night. i was wandering if anyone could help explain whats rong with me or what i should do, this is very upsetting and confusing. if anyone has an answer please share with me.

[Sally44]

Do you still have family around that you can talk to about this?  It sounds like mental illness, but only a qualfied doctor can say.  Hearing voices telling you to do things are related to Bi-Polar disorder, paranoia; delusions and scizophrenia type disorders.  There are medications that can control it, but sometimes it does take a while to find the right medication at the right dose.  The good thing is that you recognise the change yourself.  This has nothing to do with age, intellect or ability.  It is something that some people do develop and it is treatable.  Because these voices are telling you to hurt other people you should talk with family and a doctor about it.  Episodes usually start during times of stress or anxiety, so if there have been any big changes or upset or high levels of stress then that can trigger another episode.  Episodes can be of different strength and duration, that is why letting a doctor know is important because you may/may not come through an episode without medication.  I think it is advisable to talk this through with your doctor (with a family member with you), so that you can all discuss the options.