Dearest Friends

[DarbiesMom]

You are truly the greatest moments in my life as I navigated Darbie's CKD. I will forever treasure your love & support. Tony, you are beyond words, a priceless diamond to the any soul :)

We are on the eve of letting Darbie go peacefully to God. I wanted to let you know how truly special you made our lives this past year. You gifted Darbie our quality time together...We had a great year! Darbie will not get to the RV/Cape in the week ahead. We hold our hands together and know this is our time to grieve beyond the walls of our home.

Darbie is by my side now. She is listening to Jack Johnson's "Curious George" which lulls her into peace.

We will hold Darbie, love her and whisper love to her....I will send her your love.

Love Always,

Lyne & Darbie:)

[DogBlog]

Hi Lynne.......in a few weeks, it will be the year anniversary of Sammie's passing.  I've been very emotional the last week or so.  So I can say it does get more bearable but at certain times, the heartbreak just slams you!!  Having lost Darbie and now Oliver and many of our other friends has broken my heart all over again.

But....I will say knowing all of you were there and understood made it easier to get through.  

Please give cyber hugs to Doll and yourself from me, Bonnie and Natasha!!  

We send all our love,
Charlene

[DarbiesMom]

You're words of kindness mean the world to me. It has been very difficult these past months. We followed thru with the RV trip to Cape Cod which was futile. Every moment of everyday was painful. Halfway thru the trip, Doll received a phone call saying her mom fell and broke her hip. Since then, she had surgery and has been residing in a lovely nursing home which is where she will live the rest of her days. That in itself has been very stressful. I picked up Darbie's urn, strapped her in the backseat of her PT Cruiser Convertible and cried, but talked to Darbie as if she was there, faithfully. Darbie has joined all her pet siblings in her picture box on the mantle above the fireplace. I picked up a PT job at our local Walmart just to get out of the house. At this time in our lives, adopting a pet is not an option until life finds a balance.

Oh, but dear God, I miss her so much...

Love to All,

Lynne

[KrissyM87]

So very sorry for what you are going through. There are no right words but i hope the anxiety attacks are getting a little better with time. I lost my Daisy on easter this year and haven't been on here because of how much it makes it all too fresh, and i know too well the toll it can take on our health as well. Sending you healing comforting thoughts.

[DogBlog]

Thinking of you!!!!!

[tonyb286]

Hi Lynne. How are you doing? Just a very quick message. I know it's not been very long since Darbie's passing and these are the hardest of days.

You are in my thoughts.

Tony x

[rdt3]

Dear Lynne, I am sorry to hear of Darbie's passing. Despite knowing  that one day we must say good bye to our friends, we are willing to give all we have to them because they enrich our lives so. You can take solace in the fact that you gave Darbie the best life possible.

Best wishes, Robert

[tonyb286]

Hi Lynne. Just checking in with you and Darlene ... how are you holding up? These are truly the most difficult days. My heart is with you. Stay strong.

Tony x

[DogBlog]

Hi Lynne.  Thinking of you and Darlene each day.  Sending big hugs yto you both.

Love,
Charlene

[DarbiesMom]

Thank you for your kindness and lovely words. I know how blessed and grateful I am to have had the love and support of this forum.

Darbie was so special...Thank you for remembering her

Fondly,

Lynne

[DarbiesMom]

Thank You Charlene...This truly is agonizing. Darlene suffered terribly with anxiety attacks and could not breathe. I had all I could do to find a quiet corner where I could grieve. My mind is constantly playing tricks on me as I built my life around Darbie. I miss her so badly and intense grief overwhelms me with no notice. We are going thru the motions...The RV comes Tues and we will throw in the basics and head out Friday morning. I am grateful as I want to get out of this house.The trip itself will present a wide range of emotions. Darbie blessed us with 7 wonderful summers and I'll miss looking over my shoulder and see her smiling face.

We had horrible/severe thunderstorms last night that lasted hours! I know Darbie did not miss that!

My love to You and thank you for your kindness-
Lynne & Darbie:)

[DogBlog]

I wish I could just hug and cry with you and Darlene.  When my first dog died, I was diagnosed with atrial fibrillation and I swear part of it was because how broken-hearted I was.  This type of grief will have awful affects on your body so please take care of yourselves.  Darbie is in good company with her CKF buddies and I know Sammie is taking care of her!

I know this is easier said than done, but please try to just remember you gave Darbie more than anyone would ever have done and she loved you dearly.   Just hug each other!!

Going to the Cape will be fun and hard at the same time.  Just know we are here for you.

Love,
Charlene

[Earlsteffie]

Dear Lynn, I've not spoken with you before, but I have kept up with you and Darbie. The correct words are really hard to generate at times like this, but I will tell you the exact same thing my vet told me,......"Darbie was blessed to have you provide care for him." You were also blessed to have found this site and Tony. I feel your pain directly and know exactly what you are going through now and days/weeks/months to come.

Take Care of yourself.

Regards,

Earl

[DarbiesMom]

Thank You, Charlene

I don't know how to balance my grief and Darlene. She is suffering with anxiety and can not breath:( The loss of Darbie is has taken a toll on us. It is surreal as we head out to Cape Cod, Darbie is packed to go...I breathe...I inhale and exhale, I look to the sky, the stars, and ask God to bless us with mercy. I know God is merciful. I know we had the mercy of God to know to let sweet Darbie go. I am in pain:(

[tonyb286]

Hello Lynne. I knew what the day held for you and Darbie and you were both in my mind and heart. If Darbie could have, she would have said a huge and enormous Thank You to you. So, instead, I'll say it on her behalf. THANK YOU.

No more suffering. The fight is over. Darbie is at peace.

Grief is hard. Really hard. It wells up and takes over, if we allow it too. But we are here and you must come and talk to us whenever the need arises. You don't need to go through this alone, because friends can support you. We aren't just here for the uphill battle against this dreadful disease, but afterwards too - and forever. Just like our dogs ... we are forever friends.

I'm send you love, the kindest thoughts, cyber hugs and more. Today is the start of another journey.

Run free Darbie.

Tony x

[DarbiesMom]

Dearest Tony,

Darbie is free now. She was with her moms, loved to the end. What a good girl, love of my life:)

GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS. You are beyond words my HERO. Darbie thrived happy & strong for 16 months!

The walls are empty and it is agony. Everyone relates...Life

Tony, you were in my heart and soul as we said goodbye to Darbie. You got us this far and Darbie was so happy:)

Love to You My Friend!

Lynne & Darbie:)

[DogBlog]

I thought of you, Darlene and Darbie all day today.  My heart was breaking as badly as when we had to let Sammie go.  I know how you are, and will be, feeling over the next few days, months!!  I still have break downs over Sammie!!

I will be here for you whenever you need to cry, laugh, share Darbie memories.  On my drive home from work today, I looked up in the sky and told Sammie she now had Darbie and she needed to take care of her!!

Hugs to you and Darlene.

With love,
Charlene

[DarbiesMom]

My Friend Charlene:)

I was blessed with Darbie the day I rescued her from the shelter. She was my everything:)

God blessed me to find you lovely people, my friends who helped balance Darbie and me. I was so frightened when I learned Darbie has CKD. Tony lessened my fears with his priceless insight on diet, love & support.

You My Friend, held my hand today. We let Darbie go to the Angels. She is with Sammie:)

We are in pain now, but I want you to know how much your kind spirit wrapped around us and gently gave Darbie peace.

My love to You Always

Lynne & Darbie:)

[DogBlog]

Lynne:

I don't even know how to begin except in the year we've been forum friends, I feel so close to you and Darbie.  I know you and Tony were the reasons Sammie was with me for so much longer than expected.

I am shedding tears and feel so heartbroken for you and Darlene.  I know how much you were hoping Darbie would make it to the Cape.  Darbie was one of the most blessed four legged babies I know.  She was so lucky to have you as her guardians and there is nobody who could have been better at it!!  Of course, I also know you were so lucky to have her in your lives.

Please know my thoughts, prayers and tears will be with you tomorrow.  Sammie will be there to play and snuggle when Darbie gets there!!!  Like Tony, I wish I was  there to hug you and give you comfort.  I will be there for cyber hugs.

Please touch base when you are up to it.

All my love,
Charlene

[tonyb286]

Lynne. You know, many people visit the forum, all because of CKF. When I started it on MedHelp, I figured it would be a good place for all of us that have or are going through this dreadful illness with our best friends. What I hadn't anticipated, was the amount of wonderful people I would meet along the way, or the sometimes insurmountable sadness I feel when we lose the fight. I try to stay as dispassionate as I can (otherwise I would go a little insane), but also stay supportive and helpful - but every now and then an owner and their dog comes along that truly touch my heart and soul. You and Darbie are certainly amongst the latter - and I have to admit to shedding tears when I read your post. I'm fairly hopeless at staying dispassionate.

I feel I know Darbie so well. I fell in love with her when I first saw the photos you posted. I just wish I could be there to support you through this period and beyond. I do know one thing, Darbie has enjoyed her life so much, thanks to the adventures, love and compassion you have given her. I am pleased you feel my involvement has helped. I only wish I could have done more. Give her a huge hug from me.

Tony x

[DarbiesMom]

Tony,
You are our champion...Darbie's estimated age is 11+ years old. Life happens:) It does not lesson the pain of loss, but I know Darbie, Darlene & I had a greater love with the blessing of time.

Darbie's a lab-mix...We think a "Borador":) What a beautiful girl...Great Love:)

Tony, please know Darbie THRIVED so wonderfully in our time together. You gave her strength in her her legs:) She still has enough strength in her her not to crumble and fall...Thank You for Darbie's integrity to her last day.

I thank God for You, Charlene and all the blessed who come here and tomorrow for advice and comfort.

Forever,
Lynne & Darbie:)

[tonyb286]

Oh my oh my. I usually have some words to comfort folk here, but I'm at a loss, Lynne. We have all travelled a long road with you and Darbie, some good times and some not so good. I had an inkling things may not be going well, as your recent posts have been worrying, but I didn't want to say anything and just kept crossing my fingers hoping and hoping ...

You have achieved the most amazing results with Darbie. And that's all down to you and your constant hard work and your courage and your love. Darbie has gained a little time, I think, and I'm sure that extra time has created some good memories. I really am sorry. You are now going through the worst stage of all - but be courageous, be strong and know we are here for you and (in heart and mind if not physically) for Darbie too.

My thoughts are truly with you.

Tony x