I don't know if this is relevant to your website's mission, but I really need to get this off my chest. I just need to be able to get this out. I am a college senior and is suffering the flu. I have been coughing my lungs out and been in an out of fevers and chills. A few of my friends have called me ask about my condition, but I feel like they are not genuine. They called me initially to ask if I wanted to go out. After they fought out they nonchalantly asked if I was "okay." Not if you need anything call me. I told them that I have the flu and unless they've been vaccinated, don't come see me because I don't want to infect them. Honestly if my good friend told me that I would disregard her hesitation and still go see her/him. I hate how my friends are so "fake." They only want to be around me when I'm fun, not when I'm suffering and really need their concern. The only friend that I have, would rather sleep than take me to get some soup. That really hurts, I thought we were really good friends! I can't talk to my family members because I'm so far from home and I don't want them to worry. I don't want to talk to one other good friend because like my family she really far away and can't do anything; furthermore, I don't want her to worry as well. I thought that if I treat others like how I want to be treated that if will apply when I'm in times of need. But this has proven me wrong. I feel so alone. No one cares for me and that all the people that I thought are my friends only want to use me and take advantage of my kindness. Everything is good and everyone loves me when I'm vibrants and showing them a good time, but when I'm sick there's no one here to take care of me. Is it my fault? Have I been too guarded? I feel lonely, betrayed, abused, and completely hopeless in humanity and their virtuosity. I feel that there is nothing free in life and that the only people who cares about me are those in my family. I don't want to live life like this. I don't want to put up a wall and keep everyone out. I feel that I have learned one thing, when I'm in trouble the only person that I can trust is myself!