Hi, am scheduled for an urgent colonoscopy in the next two weeks after rectal bleeding and mucus. I read that rectal tumours can be palpated on a digital exam and decided to do one myself (mad i know). Anyways, am so freaked out because just at the top of my anus where i can barely reach i cant get past this area, its completely blocked. Is this the end of my rectum and am i just feeling the internal sphincters muscle?? feels like bulges, dont really know, i am a 33 year old woman and am out of my mind. I know you cant tell me for definite what this is. When i push down it moves a bit. please help me, my poor bum is sore from all this poking. I wish i was the type would just relax and wait for the colonosocpy but im neurotic by nature and always am thinking the absolute worse,