Really bothered

A few months back my friend's 6 yr old son was rough housing with me and of course being 6 and young he was touching my breasts and pushing me into a wall playfully but I didn't stop him or correct him when he piushed on my breasts, I don;t remember telling him no cuz he was so young and I wasn't gonna push him back. Now I feel like what I did was inappropriate. A guy I really like was there and was watching the whole thing and I don't know if that's why I didn't stop it cuz I was "showing off". I feel like a sex predator now and it is really bothering me. Has anyone ever been through this? I was NOT turned on by it and was NOT thinking anything sexual but is is still bothering me.

[Ted A Grossbart, Ph.D.]

While one could argue the pros's and con's of handling the situation in different ways, that is not really the issue here.  The fact that you are guilt-tripping yourself now and in such an extreme way,  is very typical of what some call scrupulosity, definitely a symptom of OCD.  The relentless, hyper-moralistic tone of the accusatory voice is not the work of thoughtful reflection like"Hmmm, perhaps next time I would think about trying a different approach."  Both the tone and the content are clear indications it is OCD at work.

Add my vote to the other two.

tg

[autumnsky]

I have had 2 doctors ease my mind. One said it is my mind playing tricks on me since this happened a few months back my mind is playing games now cuz I worry so much and it is now that I am questioning things whether they are inappropriate to me or not. is this true? I have really bad OCD and anxiety.

[autumnsky]

add your vote to the other 2? what is that? Sorry I am just a bit confused :)

[autumnsky]

"While one could argue the pros's and con's of handling the situation in different ways, that is not really the issue here." What does that mean? I am really worried, this issue has been very bothersome for me and has made me very emotional.

[Ted A Grossbart, Ph.D.]

I meant that I agree with the other two doctors you mentioned.

tg

[Ted A Grossbart, Ph.D.]

What I see as the main problem is your giving yourself such a hard time and extreme accusations.  In my opinion that is the issue to focus on.

tg