in need of help

hi my name is kim and i have had crohn's since 2006, i have had 2 major opp's, last one in may2009,
im now at the piont of starting infliximab.
i live on my own with my 2 children and have no family close to me to help out.
at the moment i am finding it very hard to cope with every thing. i dred waking up in the morning as i im often more tierd then, then when i go to bed. i strugle to get my youngest to school on time and dont seem to be able to keep on top of things at home. as a result i find my self hiding away from the world, i really need some help and am not sure where to start. i feel so lonely at times, and often feel like im not doing enough for my kids so they have a normal life.
im scared that if i dont do something soon then it will be to late.  

[avtmom]

First, take a deep breath.  You have to take good care of yourself to give good care to your children. You can make your day manageable by focusing on just one task, the next task rather than everything you want to do until your kids leave for college.  It is difficult when your family is far away.  Mine is too.  You need a support system.  Check with your doc and or the ccf to see if they are aware of any groups.  It may not be popular these days, but find a church if you don't have one.  There is a plan for you and for your children.  A church family can offer both practical and emotional support.  Good luck to you.  I will pray for you and for your children...may you find the guidance, wisdom and peace you need.

[kristalleannee]

hi love... Im 32 and iv had crohns diease for 15 years.. Iv had two resections-one being only 14 mnths ago.. Still no relief.. im over it to.. i know exactly where your coming from..
I have one child and my husband works away for 2 weeks at a time so i do it all on my own,and some days also find it hard to get out of bed!
it can sure takes it toll emotionally...
I just want you to know that if you need to talk im here ...
I just started infliximab yesterday-was my first dose.. Today i feel really,really down in the dumps.. I just hope this works because i have run out of other options! leanne