He will awake to the fact that he is part of his child's life when the child-support court summons arrives.
My little boy is no way affected by my concerns but I
Agree with what you say! I am going to go with the tests is a court approved company which makes me feel better and I' just want it done and dusted part of me is annoyed that this will make no difference my ex still doesn't want any part of his life even if it's proved he is the father x
Trust your tests and your dates. And please don't catastrophize -- that kind of thinking ("just think of all the lives I could be destroying") is wrong-headed. Unrealistic dramatics and obsessions have no place in the life of a mother. You can't do that kind of thing around a child, you have to be the grown-up. You've done your dates and know your answer, go in with your head up and do your tests. Then get focused, and be a mature and together mommy.