Bi-Polar?

Hello to anyone that can help.  I have been suffering from a mind that won't stop for years.  This is what happens.  I feel my mind goes so fast that my ability to function is completley impaired.  Its like hypomania that is so fast that my ability to think clearly is gone.  I grind my teeth all night long (have mouth guard)  I don't ever feel rested. This state is chronic unless I meditate.   I have been to many drs and pshychiatrists, they have put me on many antidepressants which don't work.  I had one neurologist want to put me on a trial of bi-plolar drugs but i didn't want to.  Maybe I should have.  

i have issues with my sexuality which is the reason my Pshchologist thinks its stress and anxitey causing this.  I'm not so sure since my sexuality isn't as big of a deal to me anymore.  

If I meditate for a long time I can get my brain to calm down. I feel mental clarity and the ability to function.  It lasts maybe for an hour of two then all clairty and ability to function disappear.  Weird?   I have been living this way since I was 14, now 29.  Is this stress? anxitey? depression?  or bi-polar?

Any help would be appreciated.

Thank you

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

I don't know about the diagnosis, but I do know that your mind is racing to avoid thinking..you can stop by meditating for a while because you have committed yourself to not  thinking about what is bothering you...if you stop and think about it when your mind is racing, you will be struggling with yourself to face what you need to face with your work with your therapist....you might get some jump start effect with that by going to www.myvirtualshrink.com and create a free Smart Plan that will help you look at your major anxieties and help you keep your attention on them rather than run away from them.

[Jaquta]

Stress and anxiety can both cause racing thoughts (as can bipolar).
It sounds like stress.

It does still sound as though sexuality is a big deal.  To me it sounds as though you may be defending against deeper issues.  Maybe you're minimizing??

Maybe a regular relaxation/ meditation program would help.
Sometimes when our minds are racing so much like that I wonder if medication isn't a good option.  Sometimes it can feel as though nothing we do will slow our thoughts down.  

Not sure why the meds never worked.  Maybe they weren't taken consistently or for long enough or at an adequate dosage.